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跟我走 Come with me.
生活不相信侥幸
"突离"保险
这位是苏珊 This is Susan.
我跟她说这里很安全 I told her it was safe here.
你好 苏珊 Hi, Susan.
我是劳里 I'm Laurie.
愿意和我们一起吗 Would you like to join us?
翻译：木浅 大钊 辰星晓Reginamoon 披绣闼俯雕甍 當麻紗綾
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时间轴：姜姜 永远的永远 校对：歌谣
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大厅有个卫生间 So there's a bathroom down the hall.
没有锁 It's not locked,
但只要你九点之后去 but as long as you're in there after 9:00,
可能就没其他人了 you probably won't see anyone.
我得去街对面取点儿东西 I need to go across the street to get some of my things,
但如果可以的话 我会回来的 but if it's okay, I'd like to come back
跟你在这里住几天 and sleep here for the next few nights
也好陪陪你 so you're not alone.
好吗 Is that okay?
这些是给你的 These are for you.
对了 Oh, and...
这里面只存了我的号码 My number is the only one programmed in there,
你有任何需要 随时打给我 so if you need anything ever, you just call me.
但电话不能发短信 所以你得说话了 The phone can't text, so you'll have to talk.
结婚了吗 You married?
有孩子吗 Kids?
我和你一样 Me, too.
汤米 带你出来的那个人 Tommy, the one that brought you out,
就是我儿子 he's my son.
如果你同意 我会帮你重返正常生活 If you let me, I will help you come back.
如果我做不到呢
你可以的 You can.
我就做到了 I did.
然而我心存感激 But I am grateful for it.
我也无需知道为什么 And I don't need to know how it works.
我只需要知道这个世界 I just need to know that the world...
在消失殆尽 is in decay.
我能感受到你们的痛苦 And I can feel your pain coming off you
热浪一般缠绕着你 in hot, throbbing waves.
而我可以带走它 And I can take it.
我可以带走你的痛苦 I can take it from you.
谁想拥抱一下 Who wants a hug?
几点了 What time is it?
快午夜了 It's almost midnight.
去我床上睡吧 Go sleep in my bed.
我得回去陪着她 I'm gonna go back over there, be with her.
要我给你做个三明治吗 You want me to make you a sandwich?
不了 No.
找到下一个"蜂巢"了吗 You find the next hive yet?
别那么叫他们 Don't call them that.
为什么 Why?
因为他们是人 汤米 不是虫子 Because they're people, Tommy, not insects.
我知道他们是人 I know they're people.
我倒是听说哈肯萨克有一家 I did hear of a house in Hackensack.
大概有30名信徒 It's got almost 30 members.
我觉得你得给自己几天时间 You know, you just got to give yourself a few days,
恢复你正常的状态 get yourself back.
我正常的状态 Myself back?
我挺不放心你的 I'm worried about you.
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现在他们知道你的模样了 They know your face now.
或许你该尝试一下其他方法 Maybe you should try something else.
他们什么都不知道 They don't know shit.
他们全国到处都有分会 Chapters are spread all over.
他们互相之间不交流 They don't talk to each other.
他们压根儿就不说话 Jesus, they don't talk at all.
只能从内部入手 It only works from the inside.
只有这样才能取得他们对我的信任 It's the only way for me to get them to trust me.
只有这样才能取得他们对你的信任 The only way for me to get them to trust you.
哈肯萨克市去死吧 Fuck Hackensack.
去搞定他们吧 小子 You go get 'em, kiddo.
你有没有想念过 You ever miss it?
-什么 -沉默不语的日子 - What? - The quiet.
没有 No.
强烈的渴望
精神专制 举行仪式的环境
那是什么 What is that?
什么 Sorry?
你在写什么 What are you writing?
我在写书 Oh, it's a book.
关于什么的书 What's it about?
关于我们的书 It's about us.
这不是露丝医生嘛 There she is. Dr. Ruth.
早上好 维克托 Hey, good morning, Viktor.
-你有火吗 -我戒烟了 - You got a light? - I quit.
真的吗 我也是 Really? Me, too.
来 我来给你开门吧 Here, let me get this for you.
心理咨询干得怎么样了 So how's the counseling business?
-目前还行吧 -真的吗 - So far so good. - Really?
如果你那儿还需要什么东西的话 If you need anything else in the space,
我认识个人可以租给你一些家具 I got a guy who can rent you out some furniture.
不用 我们搞的定 No, we're okay. We're okay.
还有 我知道有些托租 And, hey, I know... I know it's a little late,
但是我周五会把支票给你的 可以吗 but I'll have the check for you on Friday, okay?
当然 没关系 没问题 Yeah, all right. No problems.
挺好的 对了 劳里 That's great. Yeah, uh, Laurie?
这个月开始租金涨200 可以吗 It's gonna be an extra 200 here on out, okay?
为什么 Why?
因为这是一座商用建筑 Because this is a commercial building
而你们总有人住在里面 and you got people living there.
不是的 有时候我只是工作很晚而已 No, no, sometimes I work late.
好吧 但是大厦的卫生间 Yeah, well, you know, these toilets,
只是白天有人打扫 晚上没有的 they can handle day poops, not night poops.
了解 我在写一本书 Okay, look, I... I'm writing a book.
这书一定会畅销 It's going really well,
但是 我现在手头上有点儿紧 but, you know, money's just a little tight right now.
好吧 Yeah, well,
那你想想办法吧 see if you can shake some loose.
好吧 Okay.
袋子里是百吉饼吗 Are those bagels?
大家就像什么事都没发生过一样走来走去 Everybody walks around like nothing happened.
他们甚至都不想 They don't even think about it.
就像记忆被清除了一样 Like they just had it erased or something.
我有时觉得他们关心的事都特愚蠢 The stuff they care about just feels so stupid sometimes.
你关心什么事情 What do you care about?
我的家人 My family.
这是个反问吗 Was that a question?
因为你最后的语调是上扬的 'cause your voice kind of went up at the end.
当时我们在吃晚饭 感觉很不错 We were eating dinner, it was nice.
当时我丈夫有来言 我也有去语 And then my husband said something, I said something back.
我说话的时候就在想 And while I'm talking I'm thinking,
这太不真实了 "This is so fake.
你就像在别人的电影里说台词而已 You're in someone else's movie and you're just saying lines."
我觉得自己 I felt...
像局外人 Outside.
去他的局内人 Beats the fuck out of inside.
这里不欢迎你们 You are not welcome here.
-他们是怎么找上门的 -这不重要 - How'd they find us? - Doesn't matter.
他们现在伤害不了你们了 They can't hurt you now.
他们是懦夫 They're cowards.
给我滚 You leave.
你的痛苦无关紧要
过了一会儿 他问我想不想进屋 And then after a while, he asked me if I wanted to come in.
你们都聊了什么 What did you talk about?
聊了聊凯尔的近况 How Kyle was doing.
暑假期间格伦给他找了个家教 Glenn got him a tutor over the summer.
接着他问我要不要回家 And then he asked me if I was coming home.
听起来你觉得很惊讶啊 Sounds like you're surprised.
我之前不觉得他希望我回家 I didn't think he'd want me to.
但他确实希望 But he does.
也许吧 Maybe.
你不信他的话吗 You don't believe him?
他人简直太好了 He was just so nice.
我当时说走就走了 I mean, I was just gone
差不多两个月 for almost two months
感觉一切都已经覆水难收 and it was just like water under the bridge.
因为我知道他很生气 Because I know he's angry.
你不知道 也许他只是想你回家 You don't know that. Maybe he just wants you home.
没错 但他也的确很生气 Yeah, but he's angry, too.
像你一样 Like you.
我没有生气 I'm not angry.
好吧 Okay.
苏珊... Susan...
你的家人不想恨你 your family doesn't want to hate you.
他们想原谅你 They want to forgive you.
这位是霍华德 This is Howard.
我跟他说这里很安全 I told him it was safe here.
你好 霍华德 Hello, Howard.
我是劳里 I'm Laurie.
愿意和我们一起吗 Would you like to join us?
所谓"复生" Resurrection?
那是源于澳洲的一种说法 That's the claim from Australia
据目击者描述 有名男子被认为已死亡 as witnesses describe a man previously believed dead
出现在珀斯城外 emerging from a cave in Wanneroo
旺那卢的一个洞穴里 outside the city of Perth.
他从洞里走出来 被蚊子叮得浑身是包 Walked out covered in mozzie bites,
声称自己是在一家宾馆里 saying he'd just been in a hotel.
这名男子 身份被确认为大卫·巴顿 The man, identified as David Burton...
我给你做了奶酪三明治 I made you a grilled cheese.
吉尔给你发短信了 Jill texted you.
你翻我的手机 You went through my phone?
你手机就放在那儿嗡嗡响 It was lying right there and it buzzed,
我就没忍住 and I couldn't help it.
你俩明天要见面吗 You two are meeting tomorrow?
我能开车送你吗 Can I drive you?
她还没准备好 妈妈 She's not ready yet, mom.
要是我给她写个纸条 你能代转吗 If I wrote her a note, would you give it to her?
可以 Okay.
我能开车送你吗 Can I drive you?
我保证不让她发现我 I promise, she won't even see me.
我保证像空气一样零存在 It'll be like I'm not even there.
好吧 Okay.
你干什么呢 What are you doing?
没什么 刚有个... 没什么 Nothing. There was a... it's nothing.
吉尔很开心 Jill's happy.
-她看了我的信吗 -看了 - Did she take my letter? - Yeah.
她看了 Yeah, she did.
-怎么回事 -门上锁了 - What's going on? - The door's padlocked.
我们被扫地出门 They threw us out.
所有东西都堆在走廊里了 They put all the stuff in the hallway.
不要啊 我还能去哪儿 No. Where am I gonna stay?
没关系 大家可以去我公寓 It's okay. We can meet at our apartment.
-我们会解决的 好吗 -我的笔记本电脑 - We'll figure this out, okay? - My laptop.
有人看到我的电脑了吗 Has anybody seen my laptop?
你确定在那堆东西里面吗 妈妈 Are you sure it was in there, mom?
是的 汤姆 我早上还在这里写东西 Yes, Tom. I was writing here this morning.
所有东西都在这儿了吗 And this is everything?
走廊里所有的东西都在这吗 This was everything in the hallway?
妈妈 妈妈 冷静一下 Mom, mom, calm down.
我写的书存在电脑里 而且我没有备份 My book was on it and I don't have a backup.
你都没给自己邮箱里发一份吗 You didn't email it to yourself?
一定是那个混账东西拿走了 That motherfucker took it.
我知道我拖租了 但我会把钱补给你的 I know I'm behind, but I can get you that money.
我只需要把我的东西拿走 I just need to move some things around.
好啊 你什么时候给钱 Okay, so as soon as you do,
就什么时候搬回去 you can get your space back.
-我要我的笔记本电脑 -你的什么 - I need my laptop. - Your what?
笔记本电脑 我之前放在办公室里 My laptop. It was in the office.
就放在一张小床上 It was on one of those cots.
原来那些床不是用来睡觉的啊 The cots no one's sleeping on?
维克托 很抱歉 Viktor, look, I'm sorry.
我的工作 我正在帮助的那些人 My work, the people that I'm helping,
他们需要 他们 我... they need... they... I...
我不应该向你撒谎 I shouldn't have lied to you.
我会把钱给你的 And I will get you that money.
你甚至可以拿走我的电脑 You can even have the laptop.
我只需要里面的一个文件 我写的书 I just need one file off of it... my book.
我不可能再重写一遍 I just... I can't write it again.
我没法重头开始写 I just cannot start over.
如果我把文件给你 If I give you your file back,
那不就证明我拿了你的电脑吗 that would be proof that I have your computer.
-那是你的儿子吗 -是的 - Is that your son? - Mm-hmm.
你就不想晚上回家的时候 Don't you want to go home tonight
能告诉他你是个好人吗 and tell him that you're a good man?
在别人寻求帮助的时候 你施予援手了 That somebody asked for help and you gave it to them?
我儿子是个混球 My kid's an asshole.
而且我没拿你的电脑 And I don't have your laptop.
妈妈 Mom!
妈妈 妈妈 Mom! Mom!
你他妈在干什么 What the fuck?
你他妈的是谁 Who the fuck are you?
你在我家都做了什么 What did you do in my house? Hey!
这怎么回事 What the fuck?
你们家的床垫软吗 Is your mattress soft?
什么 Sorry?
苏珊习惯睡在地上 Susan is used to sleeping on the floor
或是行军床 and then a cot,
需要花些时间才能适应舒适的环境 so comfort takes some getting used to.
我们用的是那种记忆床垫 It's one of those foam memory ones,
就是那种能贴合人体曲线的 you know, that adapts to your contours.
很棒啊 Wow. That's fancy.
你可能会发现苏珊睡在地上 Well, you might find Susan sleeping on the floor
或是沙发上 一般这种情况下 or on the couch, and if that happens,
我都会温柔地鼓励她回床上睡觉 I would just gently encourage her to come back to bed.
好的 我 Yeah, I...
我可以做到 I can do that.
你在想什么 What are you thinking?
她会告诉我怎么回事吗 She gonna talk about it?
我可不想说错话 让她又离家出走 Look, I don't want to say something that makes her leave again.
我丈夫 应该说我前夫凯文 My husband... or my ex-husband Kevin...
他也觉得我是因为他而离开的 He thought that I left because of him, too.
他当然会这么想 我当时也没法告诉他 Of course he did. I couldn't tell him otherwise.
不是你让她离开的 You didn't make her leave.
是他们 They did.
她不会再离开你了 She's not gonna leave you again.
她也不会再回他们那里 And she's not gonna go back to them.
告诉他 Tell him.
我不会的 I'm not.
谢谢你 Thank you.
欢迎回家 Welcome home.
你想一直跟着我是吧 You want to follow me around, huh?!
你想在我家外面站着 You want to stand outside my fucking house?!
你有话想跟我说吗 你个小贱人 You want to say something to me, you little pussy?
说吧 Talk!
你倒是说啊 Fucking talk!
你听见了吗
你还好吗
我知道一个安全的地方 咱们可以去那里
你不用这样做 你不用 You don't have to do that. You don't have to...
放开我 Get the fuck off me!
我什么也没做 放开 Hey, I didn't do... get the fuck...
放开我 Get off me!
混蛋 去死吧你们 Motherfucker! Fuck you!
铭记
混蛋 放手 Fuck you! Get...
听我说 不用这样 我什么都没做 Listen, you don't have to... I didn't do anything.
等等 你要干什么 你要干什么 Wait, what are you... what are you doing?
你别... You don't...
等等 Wait.
放开我 放开我 Get the fuck off me! Get off me!
混蛋 放开我 Fuck you! Get off me!
放开我 Get off me!
该死 fuck!
该死 Fuck!
拜托 Please.
求你别这样 Please don't.
告诉你妈妈 梅格问候她 Tell your mom Meg says hello.
这件很好看 It's a great piece.
有特殊场合要穿吗 A special occasion?
是要参加一个会 Oh, it's for a meeting.
跟一个出版商 With a publisher.
我写了本书 I wrote a book.
我投了几家出版社 I mean, I just sent it to some places.
我也没抱什么希望 I wasn't holding my breath, you know?
然后有人给我打电话约我见面 But then one called and wanted me to come in.
这样算是有戏吧 So that's got to be good, right?
应该是 It's got to be.
一共849元 Right, it's 849.
你们的退货政策是什么 What's your return policy?
梅格是谁 Who's Meg?
什么 What?
梅格是谁 Who's Meg?
什么 你怎么没去罗谢尔家 What? Why aren't you at the new Rochelle house?
她是谁 妈妈 Who is she, mom?!
她是梅普尔顿人 S-she's a woman in... in Mapleton.
我在赎罪会时 他们让我招募她 I... when I was on the inside, they had me recruit her.
我出来之后还没见过她呢 I haven't really seen her since I got out.
你招募的她 You recruited her?
对 Yeah.
就像你招募我一样 Like you recruited me?
汤米 不是那样的 Tommy, that's not...
根本没有用 知道吗 it's fucking useless, you know?
-什么 -那个项目 那些会谈 - What? - The program! The meetings!
我们所做的一切 What we're doing!
都毫无用处 妈妈 It's not working, mom.
亲爱的 告诉我出什么事了 Honey, tell me what happened.
我人在赎罪会 和那些人在一起 What happened is I'm in there. I'm in there with them.
但你已经忘了那是什么感觉 他们言之有理 But you forgot what it's like. They make sense.
他们知道些事情 They know something.
别再说了 你的任务结束了 No, that's it. You're done.
结束了 你别再回赎罪会了 You're done. You are not going back in there.
你也不需要回去 And you don't need to.
他们打算出版我的书 汤米 They are going to publish my book, Tommy.
一旦大家了解那些屋子里发生的事 And when people read about what's going on in those houses,
我们就赢了 we will win.
我们会打败他们 We are going to beat them.
会有作用的 This is working.
宝贝 Sweetie...
这一切会有用的 This is working.
早上好 Morning.
那他觉得我是什么意思呢 Come on, what did he think I meant?
那家伙对艺术一无所知 The guy's got ignorance down to an art form.
该死 我是说科学 Shit, I mean science.
不懂科学 Down to a science.
我想说 要是你对某个领域不了解 I mean, you can't be responsible for anything
就不该负责相关工作 if you say you don't understand it.
你明白吗 You know?
但你试图让他表态时 But you try and pin him down about it,
他就那么盯着你 then he just looks at you,
一副"何必如此在意"的样子 and he's like, "Well, why do you care so much anyway?"
然后你就处于被动了 Then you're on the defensive just like that.
我真搞不懂 I don't know.
只盼着他能早点儿调走 Just praying for the day that he gets transferred.
无时无刻
整个公司都会有所改善 Whole place would be better off.
亲爱的 你占错车道了 Honey, you're in the wrong lane.
不 你不能 No, you can't.
苏珊 你占错车道了 苏珊 停车 Susan, it's the wrong lane! Susan, stop!
占错车道了 快停车 天啊 It's the wrong lane. Stop! Jesus christ!
停车 Stop!
你好 有什么可以帮您 Hi, may I help you?
我跟彼得·贝内德托11点有约 Yes, I have an 11:00 appointment with Peter Benedetto.
我叫劳里·加维 It's Laurie Garvey.
很好 Great.
劳里到了 Laurie's here.
好的 Okay.
他们几分钟后就可以见你 They'll be ready for you in just a few minutes.
请先到那边坐一下 You can have a seat right there.
要喝点什么吗 Can I get you something to drink?
不用了 这样就行 Uh, no. I'm great.
他们超喜欢你的书 They love your book.
-是吗 -是啊 - They do? - Oh, yeah.
大获全胜 Big time.
你好 我是劳里 Hi, it's Laurie.
抱歉 什么 I'm sorry, what?
不 我 Uh, no. I...
我 你能不能 I... can you...
能请你慢点重复一遍吗 I need you to slow down and say that again.
你知不知道他们是否 Do you know if they're...
好 Okay.
我尽量 Okay, I'll try...
好的 不用 我... Okay. No, I...
我回头再给你打电话 I'll call you back.
我 很抱歉 我现在得... I'm... I'm so sorry. I'm gonna have to...
我刚得知我朋友出事了 I just found out a friend of mine was in an accident.
劳里 我是彼得 Laurie. Peter.
毫不夸张的说 我整星期都盼着这次会面 I'm not kidding, I've been waiting for this all week.
能到后面聊聊吗 Ready to come on back?
-当然 -来吧 - Sure. - Come on. Come on.
劳里 我得告诉你 Well, Laurie, I should tell you
我们一般不接受毛遂自荐的稿子 we almost never accept unsolicited material,
但凯丽在自荐稿堆中发现了颗珍珠 but Kerry here is the queen of the slush pile.
她来找我说 And she came to me and she said,
我觉得我发现了下一本《然后为何》 "I think I may have just read the next 'What's next.'"
你知道《然后为何》吧 You know "What's next," right?
帕特里克·约翰森 Patrick Johansen.
是的 当然知道 Oh, yes. Of course.
那是一部巨著 相当鼓舞人心 Yeah, it was a huge book. Inspirational.
人们想知道他是如何挺过去的 People wanted to know how he was able to move on.
你呢 你是出自一个完全不同的视角 And you, you're coming at this from a completely different angle.
从内部展现整个邪教 The whole cult thing from an insider's perspective.
-我非常喜欢 -很抱歉 - I love it. - I'm so sorry.
我把它调成无声状态 Let me just put this on silent.
这是个不错的补充标题 Hey, there's a great alt title.
"让它陷于无声" "Let me just put this on silent."
听着 劳里 一旦我们达成协议 So listen, Laurie, as soon as we have a deal locked in,
我希望你和马丁一起坐下来商量下 I want you and Martin to sit down together.
他负责的《然后为何》和《离去3.0》 He did "What's next," "Departure 3.0."
是位很棒的编辑 He's a great editor.
他有些很不错的点子 And he's got some terrific ideas.
帮你润色打磨 让内容清晰明朗些 Help you sharpen the edges. Get some clarity to it.
清晰明朗 Clarity?
是的 比如说关于抽烟 Um, yeah. Like the smoking.
你自始至终没说他们为什么让你一直抽烟 You never really explain why they make you smoke all the time.
因为我确实从来没有得到过答案 Because it was never really explained to me.
明白 但其中肯定有故事的 对吧 Yeah, but they have a story, right?
我不明白 I don't understand.
故事 神话传说 A story. A myth.
有本教会守则 规定如何行事之类的 A rule book that says do this this way or else.
比如说天主教徒相信 Like for instance, the Catholics believe
耶稣为世人的罪而被钉死在十字架上 that Christ died on the cross for our sins.
大卫教徒相信是上帝 The Branch Davidians believe that
让大卫·考雷什和自己的女儿上床的 god told David Koresh to fuck his own daughters.
那个澳大利亚的神经病 This wing nut in Australia
声称自己去过另一个世界而且能永生 says that he went to the other side and he can't die.
我们都知道赎罪会的恶行 We know what the guilty Remnant does,
但是他们到底信奉什么 but what do they believe?
他们信奉世界已经灭亡了 They believe the world ended.
好吧 好吧 很好 Okay, all right. All right, great.
这就是你和马丁要考虑的事情 So that's... you and Martin will work on that.
更大的问题是 But the bigger issue
我们得在故事情节中注入些情感 is we've got to put some feeling into this thing.
-你说什么 -情感 - Sorry? - Feeling.
情绪 Emotion.
我是说 书里提到过一些令人很伤感的东西 I mean, there's some heartbreaking stuff in here.
那个打火机 The lighter.
你女儿送你的 From your daughter
上面刻着"回家吧 妈妈" with the engraving "Please come home, mom."
是"不要忘记我" It said "Don't forget me."
更胜一筹 Even better.
懂了吧劳里 这才是这本书应该有的东西 See, Laurie, that's what this book wants to be.
如果你想让读者产生共鸣 If you want people to connect with it,
你得让他们知道那是怎样一种感受 you have to tell them how it felt.
什么怎样的感受 How what felt?
觉醒的历程 The realization.
当你发现你为之抛家舍业的这帮人 When you figured out that these people
其实是群疯子的时候 that you left your family for are fucking whack jobs.
好吧 Okay.
你女儿叫... Oh, your daughter, um...
-吉尔 -吉尔 对 - Jill. - Jill, yes.
那场火灾 The fire.
天啊 我读到这儿的时候简直不敢相信 My god, when I read that, I couldn't believe it.
但核查员说你当时就在现场 But the fact-checkers said you were there.
吉尔也在现场 And Jill, she was there
因为那帮人把你洗脑了 对吧 because these people had you brainwashed, right?
他们让你把自己女儿也留在屋里 Then they got you to let your own daughter into the house
这样你们就可以一同自焚了 so that you would burn together.
但你终于挣脱束缚 But then you break free.
谈谈
已经一年了 And when you finally speak
你终于开口说话了 for the first time in, what was it, a year,
你冲着你丈夫大喊吉尔的名字 you shout Jill's name to your husband,
你为了赎罪会而和这个男人离婚 The same guy these people made you divorce.
然后他冲进火海 And he goes running in.
女儿是因为你才被困在屋里的 I mean, she's in there because of you.
但你却无法救她 But you can't save her.
是他救了她 He's the one to save her
因为你所能做的就是站在那里看着 because all you can do is stand there and watch.
你把这个故事写进书里 劳里 And I know all of this, Laurie,
所以我才能知道这些 because you put it in your book.
但劳里 我不知道却需要知道的是 But what I don't know, Laurie, and what I need to know...
你对这件事的感受 is how you feel about it.
加维 Garvey.
他们喜欢我的书 They like my book.
她的所作所为 并不是我们的错 What she did, it wasn't our fault.
她迷失了心智 妈妈 我们尽力了 She was fucked up, mom. We tried.
他们就是不肯让路 They won't jump out of the way.
-什么 -我不想伤害他们的 - What? - I don't want to hurt them,
但他们就是不肯让路 but they won't jump out of the way.
妈妈 我知道你此刻内心混乱 Mom, I know you're fucked up,
但现在每个回到我们住处的人 but everyone's back at our place right now
都陷入迷茫之中 and they're all losing their shit.
你能自己先振作起来吗 So can you keep yours together?
我们为什么会陷入迷茫 Why are we losing?
因为赎罪会一直给他们灌输信念 Because they're giving them something.
我们可以把它连根拔起 可除去之后 We can strip it away, but once it's gone,
我们就无法弥补那个空缺 we have nothing to put back in its place.
那我们也给他们灌输信念 Well, let's give them something.
心理咨询师要遵守很多规矩 Therapists have a lot of rules.
但只有一条是真正重要的 Only one really matters...
就是不要谈论自己 Don't talk about yourself.
"消失事件"发生后的最初几周中 I spent the first weeks after the Departure.
我只是等待 Just waiting.
我现在依然在等 I'm still waiting.
我们都在等 We all are.
我曾有一位病人说她可以 I had a patient who said she could
感知将要发生的可怕的事情 feel that something terrible was gonna happen.
确实如此 And it did.
所以几个月后我再见到她 So the next time I saw her a few months later,
她一身白衣 抽着烟 she was wearing white, smoking a cigarette.
她知道我内心恐惧 She knew I was afraid
迷茫又孤独 and confused and alone.
等我回过神来 我正喊着我女儿的名字 And the next thing I knew, I was screaming my daughter's name
心里想 是我杀了自己女儿 thinking that I had killed her.
她叫吉尔 Her name is Jill.
我觉得她不会再跟我说话了 And I don't think she'll ever speak to me again.
但还有另外一个故事 But there is another story.
这个故事我一直没对别人说过 It's one that I've kept to myself
因为我必须 because I had to...
保护我儿子 to protect my son.
告诉他们 Tell them.
告诉他们吧 汤米 Tell them, Tommy.
他们需要你来说出来 They need you to.
你们听说过圣人韦恩吗 Have you heard of Holy Wayne?
听说过 Yeah.
他说他可以带走人们的痛苦 He said he could take people's pain away.
起初我不相信他 I didn't believe him at first,
但后来我看见他做到了 But then I saw him do it.
他就拥抱了那些人 他们就没事了 He would just hug them and they'd be okay.
我不知道怎么回事 I don't know why,
我不知道为什么是他 I don't know why him,
但我知道他能做到 but I know it worked.
所以他去哪儿 我就跟到哪儿 So I followed him wherever he went
他让我干什么 我就干什么 and I did whatever he asked of me.
之后有人来杀他 And then they came to kill him.
我们逃走了 但被迫分道扬镳 We got away, but we had to split up.
他让我保护好一位姑娘 He asked me to protect this girl,
她怀有身孕 a pregnant girl.
她生下孩子之后就不告而别了 She gave birth and then she just left the baby.
就把孩子扔在休息站的厕所里 Just abandoned it in a fucking rest stop bathroom.
孩子一直哭闹 我不知道该怎么办 The baby, she was crying and I didn't know what to do.
我孤身一人 I was alone.
我抬头望向天花板 So I looked up at the ceiling
说了句 帮帮我 and said, "help."
不是求上帝 Not to God.
不是求任何人 只是脱口而出 Not to anyone. I just said it.
十秒钟之后 有人在敲门 10 seconds later, there's a knock on the door.
是韦恩 It was Wayne.
我不知道他怎么找到我的 I don't know how he found me.
没有人知道我在哪儿 Nobody knew where I was.
孩子也不哭了 The baby stopped crying and...
他告诉我带着孩子去哪儿 He told me where to take her.
她会没事的 She'd be safe.
然后他说自己死期将至 And then he said he was gonna die.
我问他什么时候 他说就在明天 I asked him when and he said tomorrow.
我问他为什么不害怕 I asked him why he wasn't afraid.
他说 And he said,
"我已经很久很久没有害怕过了" "I haven't been afraid in a real long time."
他还告诉了我一件事 Then he told me one more thing.
他说如果我愿意接受他的能力 He said if I accepted it, that I could do what he did.
我也能像他一样带走世人的痛苦 I could take people's pain away.
但是要付出代价 But there'd be a price.
任何事都是要付出代价的 There's always a price, though.
但我还是想要这种能力 But I wanted it anyway.
我想做到他能做的事 I wanted to do what he could do.
我想成为 I wanted to be...
一种"信念" something.
于是我答应了 So I said yes.
接着他伸出双手抱住了我 And he wrapped his arms around me
我看到了我的曾经 and I felt everything I was,
以及我未来的一切 everything I ever would be.
我看到了生生死死 And I felt it get born and die
永无停息 over and over again.
然后他松开了手 And then he let go.
对不起 I'm sorry.
真的对不起 I'm so sorry.
我一直很害怕用这能力 I've been afraid to use it.
对这个能力一直心存畏惧 Been afraid of what it was.
也害怕它会改变 Of what it would become.
可我不能再让你们受到伤害了 But I can't let you hurt anymore.
我不能再一味害怕下去 I can't be afraid anymore.
那么 So...
谁想要拥抱 who wants a hug?