生日快乐
还是没消息 I still haven't heard anything.
我在很努力地控制情绪 小托 I'm really trying not to freak out, Tobe.
等等 有人敲门 Wait, someone's at the door.
不是 只是凯文和麦迪逊 No, it's just Kevin and Madison.
对我们这么"热情"啊 Oh, well, hello to you, too.
你再找找吧 Will you just keep looking?
有消息我会联系你 Just... I'll call you if I hear anything.
好 Okay.
-怎么了 -天啊 - What's up? - Oh, God.
妈妈去买生日蛋糕 结果一直没回来 Mom went to get a birthday cake, and she hasn't come back.
我给她打了电话 她也不接 I tried calling her. She's not answering.
托比去面包店问了 So, Toby went to the bakery,
发现她根本就没走到店里 and apparently, she didn't even make it there.
-我的天哪 -好 我现在出去 - Oh, my God. - Okay. I-I'm-I'm gonna go...
我去找她 一起帮忙找 I'm gonna go look for her. I'm gonna go help.
-你可以吗 -我没事 - Are you okay? - Yeah.
-你去吧 -你确定吗 - No, yeah, go. - You sure?
-确定 -等等 什么情况 - Yeah. - Wait, what's going on?
没有 就是早上有点犯恶心 No, nothing. I had a little morning sickness,
-没事了 -谢天谢地 - but... - Oh, thank God....
好 没问题 Yes. Yes. Of course.
太感谢了 Thank you very much.
对 我们在家 Yeah, we're here.
好的 Okay.
警察找到她了 S-So, the cops have her.
她...犯病了 She, uh... She had an episode.
他们这就送她回来 They're bringing her back here.
事已至此 Let's all just...
我们要冷静 Let's just stay calm.
我们不知道她回来时会是什么状态 We don't know what kind of state she's gonna be in,
我不想吓到她 and-and I don't want to panic her.
好了 女士 您到家了 All right, ma'am, you're home.
一切都会好的 Everything's gonna be okay.
妈 快进来 Mom, come on in.
谢谢你们送她回家 Thank you very much for bringing her home.
凯特·皮尔森
好了 谢谢 她情况怎么样 Okay, thanks. Oh, how's she doing back there?
她躺下了 She's laying down.
她有点恶心 She's a little nauseous.
我未婚妻妊娠反应很严重 My fiancée's got morning sickness
一天到晚都想吐 at all hours of the day.
可以试试喝姜茶 Try ginger tea.
麦迪逊还好吗 Madison okay?
还好 她没事 Yeah. Yeah, she's okay.
-妈妈的医生有说什么吗 -没有 - Did you hear anything from Mom's doctor? - No.
米格尔给她留言了 Miguel left her a message.
小凯 她刚才... Kev, she was...
看起来特别迷茫 she was gone.
脸上根本不是平时会有的表情 Like, like, her face was not her face.
是啊 I know.
太快了 我真的没准备好 It's too soon. I'm not ready for this.
我也是 Yeah, me neither.
另外 你得跟我解释一下 Obviously, at some point,
"未婚妻"这个词是怎么回事 you're gonna need to explain your use of the word "Fiancée."
说来话长 Yeah, it's a long story.
-是吗 -对 - Yeah? - Yeah.
那开车回去时你可有的解释了 Well, it's a long car ride home.
可不是嘛 True that. Yeah.
好吧 小凯 我试着给你打过电话 Okay, so, Kev, I tried calling you
打了两个小时左右 你没接 for, like, two hours, and you weren't answering.
对不起 I'm sorry.
《我们的生活》 第五季 第二集
我不知道你会... I didn't... I didn't know you were...
是 Yeah.
我正要打电话给你说妈妈的事 I was just gonna call you about Mom.
警察找到了她 把她送回了家 The cops found her. They brought her home,
所以她回到这了 so she's-she's here.
她很安全 她在休息 所以 She's safe. She's-she's resting, so...
我希望我可以给你一个大大的拥抱 Well, I wish I could give you a massive hug,
-但我不知道你是什么时候... -我没事 - but I don't know when you were... - I'm-I'm good.
我在市政厅一周做三次新冠肺炎测试 I get COVID tested three times a week at city hall.
而且贝丝在家已经成了抗疫大队长 所以 Plus Beth's turned into Fauci at home, so...
你们呢 You guys?
我们到这里之前 Yeah, we're g... We, um, we quarantined
隔离了二十天 所以我们都没事 for 20 days before we got here, so we're all good.
好的 Okay.
我想见她 I want to see her.
-她在楼上吗 -对 - She upstairs? - Yeah. - Yeah.
兰德尔 Randall.
我们不可能预料到这样的事 There's no way we could've known this was gonna happen.
在这事之前她状态特别好 你可以问凯特 She was great before this. You can ask Kate.
我没有质疑你 小凯 我相信你 I'm not questioning you, Kev. I believe you.
她回家了 这才是要紧的 She's home, and that's what matters.
没事的 It's cool.
好吧 Cool.
谢谢你过来 Thank you for coming.
我知道你现在最不需要的就是 I know the last thing that you need right now is
收到你姐惊慌失措的短信 a terrified, panicked text from your sister.
出口
医院教堂
兰德尔 Randall.
你怎么 What...
宝贝 我以为 Sweetheart, I thought--
我以为你来不了 I thought you weren't gonna make it.
怎么 你以为我会错过我们的生日吗 What, you think I'd miss our birthday?
你知道了 You know.
凯特给我打电话了 Kate called me.
贝丝和孩子们跟你一起来了吗 Are Beth and the girls with you?
没有 她们在家 No, they're back home.
下次吧 Next time.
我没感染 小凯说你也没问题 I'm clear. Kev said you are, too.
我就是想谨慎点 I just want to be vigilant.
坐 Sit.
你想跟我说说发生了什么吗 You want to tell me what happened?
我 I..
我都不知道说什么 I don't even know what to say.
我进城去 I went into town...
接下来我记得的事就是 ...and then the next thing I knew...
威廉在那里 William was there.
那个人当然不是威廉 但我... I mean, obviously not William, but I--
天啊 那个人实在太像他了 Oh, God, I could have sworn it was him.
我最近经常想起他 I've been thinking about him a lot lately.
自从我们谈过临床试验的事 Ever since we had our conversation about the trial,
还有我不让你见他的事... and about me, um... keeping him from you.
我们现在没必要谈这个 妈妈 We don't have to talk about that right now, Mom. That's...
好吧 那什么时候谈 Well, then, when?
你那里怎么了 Wh-What's going on there?
只是碰到毒藤了 That's just some poison ivy,
米格尔和我一直在种东西 Miguel and I have been gardening.
我已经吃药了 I already took something for it.
你觉得如果去了圣路易斯还会发生这样的事吗 Do you think this would have happened in St. Louis?
我不知道 I don't know.
-我很抱歉我强迫你去那里 -不用 - I'm sorry I pushed that on you. - No.
不需要 亲爱的 No, no, no, sweetheart.
你不需要道歉 You have nothing to apologize for.
贝丝和孩子们和你一起来了吗 Are Beth and the girls with you?
没有 妈妈 No, Mom.
-下次吧 -好的 - Next time. - Okay.
抱歉 打扰一下 Hey, excuse me, excuse me...
我妻子叫丽贝卡·皮尔森 My wife is Rebecca Pearson.
我还不知道最新情况 先生 I don't have an update yet, sir.
好吧 等等 我不知道该做什么 Okay, wait, I-I don't-- I don't know what to do.
我能做什么 what can I do?
你可以祈祷 You could pray.
-你在干什么 -凯文 你得和兰德尔谈谈 - What are you doing? - Kevin, you need to talk to Randall.
小凯 我尽力不插手这件事 Kev, I have tried my best to stay out of this,
但现在兰德尔对我的态度也很奇怪 but now Randall's acting all weird with me, too.
我们都还没唱生日歌呢 We haven't even done our birthday chant,
那可是常规节目啊 and that's like canon.
-好了 凯特 -不 凯文 - Oh, Kate, Kate... - No, Kevin.
世界快要崩塌了 The world is on fire.
不能再继续了 想办法解决 This is enough. Fix it.
在视频里看了那么多蛋糕 You know, after seeing all those Internet videos
被做成各种物品的样子之后 of random objects that are actually cakes,
将就着吃一个长得就像蛋糕的蛋糕 it's kind of a letdown to have a cake that just...
还真有点失望 looks like a cake.
其实 You know...
我和丽贝卡刚来这里的时候 ...when Rebecca and I first got here,
我们以为我们会在这里待一个星期 we thought we were gonna be here for a week.
最多两个星期 然后成了一个月 Two, max. Then that turned into a month.
最后成了两个月 Then two months.
但是 But...
她感觉好多了 she just kept feeling better.
我也不是白痴 And I... I'm not an idiot or anything like that.
我知道空气中没有神奇魔法 I know that there's-there's no secret magic
可以治疗她的病 in the air that's gonna cure this,
但她又像从前的丽贝卡了 but... she just seemed like Rebecca again.
你明白吗 You know?
可现在 又出了这种事 And now, with this....
简直就像往她仅有的信心上 Oh, man. It's just gonna take the legs
又泼了一盆冷水 right out from underneath her.
我现在想说一些对你有用的话 Okay, I'm gonna try to say something meaningful
但是 米格 我先提醒你 right now, Migs, and I got to warn you,
可能有些绕 你先忍着听听 好吗 it is gonna be a reach. So, you just bear with me, okay?
好的 Okay.
每天早上 我会服用二十毫克的抗抑郁药 So every morning, I take 20 milligrams of an antidepressant.
我不知道除了凯特还有没有谁知道 I'm not sure who else knows that besides Kate,
不过不是什么大不了的事 but it's-it's not a big deal.
在服药差不多一个月之后 So, about a month after I started taking, uh, the meds,
我给我的医生打电话 问他要新处方去续药 I called my doctor to renew my prescription.
结果他说 "不用担心 And he said, "Oh, no, don't worry about it.
你的药是自动续的" You have automatic refills."
他的话给我造成了很大的打击 That hit me... really hard.
让我觉得一眼望不到头 You know, it just made it feel so indefinite,
遥遥无期 so... so permanent.
我说 "我到底能不能有一天 I said, "Is there ever gonna be a time
再也不用吃这些药 when I am not on these meds?
我想知道 还有没有可能停药" I mean, is-is this ever gonna end?"
然后 他... And... and then he...
他说 "一天一天慢慢来" He says, "One day at a time."
英文同名电视剧《活在当下》
一天一天慢慢来 One day at a time.
这部电视剧很好看 An excellent TV show,
但拿来回答我的问题真是糟糕透了 and a terrible answer to my question.
我并不知道 Now, I don't know how it feels
对抗阿尔兹海默症是什么感受 to stare down Alzheimer's.
但是我知道 But I do know how it feels
看着自己的生活 to look at your life
看着你想要的一切 and to see all the things that you want from it,
那么可望而不可即 是什么感受 and to have them all seem so unattainable.
丽贝卡今天过得很糟心 Rebecca had a bad day.
这样的日子以后还会有 She's gonna have more.
你知道的 You know.
扯这么远是想建议你 My long-winded advice is for
要让她知道 你相信 you to remind her that to you,
她可以踏踏实实地幸福下去 her happy future is very real.
一天一天慢慢来 One day at a time.
那部电视剧确实很棒 It's a great show.
复播的更好看 The reboot is better.
是啊 I know.
之前那部剧被砍之后 I'm the one who started the hashtag to get it revived
-是我创建话题让它复播的 -真的吗 - after it got canceled. - Is that right?
丽塔·莫雷诺的剧砍不得 You don't cancel Rita Moreno.
阿门 Amen.
太对了 Yeah.
是丽贝卡在洛杉矶的医生打来的 Oh, this is Rebecca's doctor from L.A.
-赶紧接吧 -我得和医生聊聊 - Yeah, go ahead. - I got to take this.
喂 你好 惠特克医生 Hello. Hi, uh, Dr. Whitaker.
是她的医生吗 我要和她谈谈 Is that her doctor? I need to speak with her.
对对 是今天下午 Yeah, yeah. This, uh... It was this afternoon.
-把电话... -很严重的一次发作 - Give me the... - It was a very severe episode.
米格尔 我想和她谈谈 Miguel, I'd like to talk to her.
兰德尔 你可以等等吗... Randall, just hold on one second, please....
问问她目前服用的药物 会不会跟什么东西 Ask her if anything could have negatively interacted
有不良反应 with her meds.
等... Just...
问问她抗过敏药 Ask her about the allergy medicine,
治毒藤皮炎的药 这个 the one she took for poison ivy. Here.
你确定她吃过这个药吗 Are you sure she took this?
是的 她告诉我的 Yeah, she told me.
惠特克医生 是的 Hey, Dr. Whitaker, uh, yeah.
丽贝卡好像服用了抗组胺药 成分是... It looks like Rebecca took an antihistamine with...
是的 苯海拉明 Yes, diphenhydramine.
我确实记得清单上有这个 I do remember it from the list.
嗯 好的 Okay. Right.
所以可能是这个药导致的... So it could have been a reaction to the...
谢天谢地 好的 Thank God. Okay.
是的 她正在休息 Yes, she's resting right now.
是的 Yes.
当然 我会的 Absolutely. Yes, I will.
请原谅我 Please forgive me.
真的对不起 I'm so sorry.
她当时太痛苦了 She was in... so much pain.
好了 It's okay.
没事了 你已经哭了一晚上了 It's okay. You've been crying all night.
不累吗 Aren't you tired?
还是很痛吗 Still bad?
我们还是去诊所吧 We should go to the clinic,
-让医生帮你看下 -不行 - try to get you looked at. - No.
要是告诉医生我服用美沙酮来戒毒 If I tell that doctor I'm on methadone to get clean,
药效与吗啡类似 具有镇痛作用
他会视我如烂泥的 连烂泥都不如 he'll look at me like I'm dirt. Less than.
-罗瑞尔 拜托了 -不行 - Laurel, please. - No!
我需要你帮我买点药来镇痛 I need you to get me some stuff for the pain.
求你了 我最近很克制了 Please. I've been good.
真的 I have.
可是真的太痛了 It just-- It hurts so bad.
你帮帮我吧 给我点东西止痛 I just need a little help. Just need a little help.
好吗 就这一次 Okay? Just one more time.
这样我就可以照顾宝宝了 So I can be there for the baby.
我一个人搞不定的 I-I can't do it by myself.
我没办法照顾他 I can't take care of him.
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
求你护佑他 Please be with him.
请照顾好他 Please take care of him.
不好意思 Excuse me.
他以前总是很用力地祈祷 He used to pray so hard
你甚至能看到他脖子上暴起青筋 you could see the veins in his neck.
没错 我记得很清楚 Yeah, I remember that.
他脖子上那些暴起的青筋 The veins in his neck.
我一直不知道他在祈祷些什么 Never knew what he was asking for.
我常常觉得他是在祈求自己变得更好 I used to tell myself he was asking to be better.
对我们更好 Better to us.
成为更好的男人 A better man.
然后我也祈祷 And then I would pray.
祈祷他的愿望能实现 祈祷他会改变 Pray that it would work. That he would change.
后来他一点也没变 Then, when he never did...
我便不再做祈祷 that's when I gave up on all of this.
你给我的从来都是一手烂牌 Every hand you've dealt me has been crap.
可我仍然在努力生活 But still, I kept trying.
这么多年来 All these years...
我总是努力做正确的事 trying to always do what's right.
努力做一个他未曾做到的更好的男人 Trying to be the better man; the man that he never was.
看着顽抗的我 你是否会暗自发笑呢 Has that made you laugh... seeing me try?
因为你知道在我内心深处 Knowing that, somewhere deep down...
无论如何 还是会相信你 in spite of everything, that I probably still believed.
我生命里唯一美好的事就是她 The only good thing that has ever happened to me is her,
如果你... and if you--
拜托你不要从我身边带走她 Please do not take her away from me.
我求你了 I am begging you.
我诚心跪下来 为了她祈求你 I'm on my knees begging for her.
为我的孩子们祈求你 Begging for my children.
如果你需要 带走我就好 只是别... Take me if you want, just don't...
别带走他们 Just don't.
你想都别想 Don't you dare.
我不知道药物之间会有相互作用 I had no idea that medications could interact that way.
-确定只是一时反应吗 -医生是这么说的 - And they're sure it's temporary? - That's what the doctor said.
说那些药的相互作用可能会导致发病 Said a reaction like that can cause an episode
过段时间就会慢慢好转 and then it can just wear off.
得亏你能发现 兰德尔 It was a hell of a catch, Randall.
你也不赖 Back at you.
真庆幸你来了 兰德尔 We're lucky you came, Randall.
-的确是 -是啊 - Honestly. - Yeah.
她没事我就放心了 I'm just happy she's okay.
那我走了 So, um... I'm gonna take off.
等等 这就走了吗 Wait, what? Now?
-还有蛋糕呢 -我... - But cake. - I, uh...
我答应了贝丝和孩子们今晚会回家 I promised Beth and the girls that I'd get home tonight.
她们安排了一堆活动 所以... They got a whole thing planned, so...
-米格尔 -一路顺风 - Miguel. - Drive safe.
托比亚斯 Tobias.
姐 Sis.
小凯 Kev.
再见 Bye again.
兰德尔 Hey, Randall.
其实... 我很希望 So, I was, uh... I was hoping
你和小凯可以谈谈 你知道吗 that you and Kev would talk, you know?
-解开心结 -凯特 - Clear the air. - Kate...
我不偏向任何一方 I'm not taking any sides.
虽然我跟他都住洛杉矶 I know I live in L.A. with him,
但这件事上我完全中立 but I am totally Switzerland on this one.
好的 Okay.
兰德尔 Randall.
我们之间还好吗 Are we good?
我一直发消息联系你 I mean, I've been texting and reaching out,
但一直没收到任何回复 而且... and I haven't heard anything back, really, and...
我好担心 I'm just so worried about...
你 贝丝和孩子们 about you and Beth and the girls.
毕竟出了新闻里报道的那些事 You know, with everything that's going on in the news.
我都难以承受 我更无法想象 I'm so overwhelmed by it, I can't even imagine
你们心里是怎样的滋味 所以 what you guys are all going through, so..
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
抱歉什么 Sorry about what?
说详细一点 你在为什么道歉 Specifically, what are you apologizing for?
我只是 很抱歉国内发生这样的事 I'm just-- I'm... sorry about what's going on in the country
-接着又是抗议 还有... -好了 - and the protests and... - Okay.
可你以前从没道过歉 But you've never apologized before.
这不是黑人第一次在镜头前被杀害 And this isn't the first Black person to be killed on camera.
你说得对 No, it's... it's not.
我说不好 这次感觉不同 I don't know, this feels different.
我没感到不同 凯特 Not for me, Kate.
每一次 我从来没感到不同 It-It's never been different for me.
我们在同一屋檐下长大 We grew up in the same house.
黑人积年累月地遭遇这些不幸 Things like this have been happening to Black people for years,
可我们从来没好好聊过 and we've never talked about it.
一次都没有过 Not once.
四十年 一次都没有 Not once in 40 years.
我不知道该说什么 我不想... I don't know what to say. I don't want to say--
-我不想说错话 -好 - I don't want to say the wrong thing. - Okay.
所以 从小到大 我只好 So, growing up, I, uh, I just had to keep
把很多事藏在心里 因为... so many things to myself because...
我不想让你们难过 I didn't want to make you guys feel bad.
我不希望给你们增加负担 I didn't want you to have to worry about
让你们担心说错话 saying the wrong thing.
天啊 Oh, God...
你说得对 我们小时候的确没聊过这些 Well, you're right. I mean, we never talked about it as kids,
我觉得爸爸妈妈也尽力去做了 可是... and I think Mom and Dad did the best they could, i guess, but...
可是我确实没有参与 我甚至都没... but I didn't get involved, I-I didn't even...
所以我讨厌这样 凯特 See, I hate this, Kate.
我讨厌看到你伤心 I hate seeing you upset.
通常这时候我会抱抱你 And normally I would hug you,
我会告诉你 你所做的一切都是对的 and I would tell you that you did all the right things.
我会尽力让你感觉好起来 I would try to make it all okay for you.
但如果我这样做 凯特... But if I did that, Kate...
如果我让你好受了 谁来让我好受呢 If I made things better for you, then where does that leave me?
很抱歉 但我不能这么做 I'm sorry, but I can't do that.
这么多年来 我一直都是这个模式 That has been my pattern all my life.
说实话 凯特 这太令人疲惫了 And honestly, Kate, it is exhausting.
我累了 I'm exhausted.
我现在只想回家找我的妻子 And all I want to do right now is go home and be with my wife
还有姑娘们 and my girls.
好的 Okay.
好的 Okay, um...
我爱你 I love you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
生日快乐 老姐 Happy birthday, Sis.
生日快乐 Happy birthday.
喂 Yeah?
我是杰克 It's Jack.
好久不见 Been a while.
是啊 Yeah.
你还好吗 You okay?
还好 我... Yeah. I--
不 我... No, I--
我不知道 I don't know.
我能问你件事吗 Can I ask you something?
你当时在祈祷些什么 我是说 What were you praying for? I mean, you know,
以前我们去教堂的时候 back when we used to go to church.
你需要钱还是什么吗 You need money again or something?
发生了什么 Wh-What's going on?
没有 我很好 No, I'm good.
我不知道为什么要打给你 I don't know why I called.
我只是... 今天不太顺 I was just... having a day.
你去忙吧 Uh... I'll let you go.
-希望你一切都好 -杰克 - I hope you're okay. - Jack.
嗯 Yeah?
我当时在祈祷 希望我的孩子们将来过得比我好 Uh, I prayed my kids would turn out better than I did.
我在努力 老爸 I'm trying, Pop.
我真的在努力 I'm really trying.
是啊 我知道 Yeah, I-I know.
-我得挂了 -小杰 - I gotta go. - Hey, Jackie?
嗯 Yeah?
生日快乐 孩子 Happy birthday, kid.
谢谢你 老爸 Thanks, Pop.
他最终来到了这里 And he wound up here.
恰好在同一个地方 恰好在同一天 Exact same place, exact same day.
你看看他 小贝 Just look at him, Bec.
他就在那里 Placed right there.
就在我们孩子旁边 Right next to ours.
兰德尔 Hey, Randall.
是这样 我只是想... Hey, listen, I just wanted to, uh...
只是想跟你说声谢谢 Just wanted to say thanks for, uh...
谢谢你能过来 thanks for coming out, you know,
我真的很感激 如果你没过来 我们... I really appreciate it. If you hadn't, we, uh...
不用谢 应该的 No. Yeah, of course.
好 Yeah.
-我得避开高峰期 -好吧 - I should go to beat the traffic. - Yeah.
兰德尔... Hey, Randall, uh...
我有女儿了 I'm having a-a girl.
一对龙凤胎 我们刚知道 A girl and a boy. We just found out.
恭喜你 小凯 这可是个好消息 Congratulations, Kev. That's great news.
谢谢 Thanks.
其实 你是我告诉的第一个人 Yeah, you're the first person I've told.
我感觉 说不清 男孩嘛 And I feel like, I don't know, I feel like the boy,
毕竟我自己就是过来人 我能管好男孩 对吗 you know, I was a boy once, I can handle a boy, right?
但女孩 我... But the girl, I...
所以... So...
不知道你有什么建议吗 Anyway, you got any advice for me?
你会对她百般娇惯 You'll let her get away with anything.
但她妈会帮你管她 But her mom will be there to fix your mistakes.
实话说 妈妈或许方方面面都比爸爸强 Mom will probably be better at everything, honestly.
是啊 Yeah.
嗯 她应该会的 Yeah, she probably will be.
其实 虽然是误打误撞... You know, in the strangest of ways...
但我感觉自己也许... I feel like I might have...
真的找到了一个很特别的人 really found someone really special, you know?
我得走了 I gotta go.
生日快乐 Happy birthday.
生日快乐 兰德尔 Happy birthday, Randall.
你就打算一直盯着我看 You gonna keep staring at me,
而不告诉我你的名字吗 or you gonna tell me your name?
不知道 I don't know.
你愿意告诉我你的名字吗 You gonna tell me your name?
-我是罗瑞尔 -我是威廉 - I'm Laurel. - William.
但这里的人叫我... But around here they call me...
莎士比亚 Shakespeare!
莎士比亚 你到站了 到家了 孩子 Shakespeare, it's your stop. You're home, kid.
你不下车吗 You getting off or what?
不 我不下车 继续走吧 No, I'm not getting off. So just... keep going.
兰德尔 你好 Hi, Randall.
你好 利医生 抱歉打扰你了 Hi, Dr. Leigh. Uh, sorry to bother you.
希望你现在有空... I hope it's an okay time to...
当然 没事 我看到是你 No, of course. I-I saw your name,
就想确认下 你是不是一切都好 and I wanted to make sure everything was all right.
嗯 没错 一切都好 Yeah, no, everything's all right.
不过... But...
利医生 我和你第一次见面时 When we first met, Dr. Leigh,
你提到了一点 you made a point of pointing out
你说几乎没有黑人请你做治疗 just how few Black men seek you out for therapy.
"概率非常低" 你当时这么说 It's a "very small number," were your words.
我有印象 I remember.
我当初特意挑选了 I made a conscious choice to start seeing
一位白人女性治疗师 a white female therapist.
我知道的 I know that.
我的感觉很复杂 It's complicated for me,
甚至我自己也不能完全理解 and I can't claim to understand it,
但我确实能感觉到 but I-- but I do know it.
不知我说清楚了没有 If that makes sense.
有些事情 利医生 There are things, Dr. Leigh,
我感觉不太方便跟你聊 that I don't feel comfortable talking to you about.
当我走进你的办公室时 我会收起一些心事 There's stuff I-I put away when I enter your office,
而这... and...
对我没有帮助 that doesn't help me get better.
而且你也没办法帮助我 让我更加放松 And there's nothing you can do to make me more comfortable.
所以... I just...
我需要试试不同的方法 I need something different.
我想重新找一位黑人治疗师 I'm gonna make a change and find a black therapist.
我只是想亲口告诉你这件事 And I just wanted to tell you that directly.
兰德尔 显然 你的心理健康是最重要的 Randall, obviously your mental health is what's important here,
如果这是你很想去做的... and if that's something that you're feeling strongly about...
我完全尊重你做的任何决定 I completely respect any decision you make.
我知道你很在意这顿晚餐 所以... I knew that the meal was important to you, so...
我尽力做到最好了 I'm doing the best that I can.
请温柔点批判 So be gentle in your critique.
你说 今天这种感觉 Is that what it's gonna feel like...
就是我以后的... when I eventually...
我们不用担心这个 We don't have to worry about that.
至少今天不用 Not-not today.
-你知道奇怪的是什么吗 -什么 - You know what's so strange? - Hmm?
我不担心忘掉那些大事 I'm not worried about forgetting about the big stuff.
我怕的是忘掉那些小事 It's the little things.
是... It's the...
孩子们还小的时候 It's the regular...
那些普通的周六 Saturday when the kids were little.
一个没什么大事发生的日子... A day when nothing big really happens. J...
就一起待着 一个普通的家庭 We were just there, a normal family,
像其他普通的家庭一样 like any other normal family.
笑着 聊着... Laughing and talking and...
玩贴驴尾巴的游戏 ...playing pin the tail on the donkey.
那是我还没准备好要忘记的东西 That's the stuff I'm not ready to let go of yet.
我想给你看个东西 I want to show you something.
来 Come on.
-来 -什么... - Come on. - What...
我砍掉了那棵枯树 I chopped down the dead tree.
我知道你说你想种一颗树苗... And I know that you said you wanted to plant a sapling...
这样我们就能很快吃到水果了 但... ...so that we could get fruit sooner, but,
这似乎太简单了 I don't know, it just seemed, um... too easy.
所以 我买了这些 So, instead, I got these.
等到这些结出果实 Now, these should bear fruit
大概要六到十年后 in about... six to ten years.
六到十年 我不... Six to ten years? I don't...
我不着急 I am not in a rush.
一天一天慢慢来 One day at a time.
然后再一天 And then another...
再一天... And then another.
我爱你 I love you.
-我爱你 -谢谢 - I love you. - Thank you.
猜猜看 Guess what.
怎么了 What's going on?
我一直在想兰德尔说的话 I can't stop thinking about what Randall said.
我居然从未察觉到 I've been so oblivious.
-我能做点什么 -没事 - What can I do? - Noth-Nothing.
你想帮忙这点很贴心 但我觉得 That's sweet, but I'm gonna have to
我得独自承受这些情绪一会儿 sit with these feelings a while.
我们养孩子们的时候注意就好 Well, we'll just have to get it all right raising our children.
是 好 Yeah. Yes.
我说养孩子们 Raising our children,
-孩子们 复数 -是 - which is the plural of "Child." - Mm-hmm.
孩子们 Children.
你怎么怪怪的 Are you doing something confusing?
因为我没... 听不懂 'Cause I don't-- I don't get it.
我看出来了 听我说 Apparently. Listen.
我刚收到领养机构的六条消息 I just got six messages from the adoption agency.
凯特 我们匹配到了 Kate, we have a match.
什... Wh...
什么 What?
他们给我们找到匹配家庭了 They found us a match.
-真的吗 -是的 - For real? - Yes.
-我们要有孩子了 -我们要有... - We're getting a baby? - We gettin' a ba...
抚养孩子 艾莉 33岁
再来一块吧 And another one.
我没有精神崩溃 贝丝 真的没有 I'm not having a breakdown, Beth. I'm really not.
我现在比过去几年都要健康 I'm healthier than I've been in years.
但我在工作中需要处理的事 But what I'm dealing with at work,
和我们在生活中需要处理的事 and what we're dealing with as a people,
日复一日... day after day...
-太让人难过了 贝丝 -我懂 - It's just so tragic, Beth. - Mm-hmm.
失去了太多 So much loss.
我很难受 It's just so sad.
我没有失控 也没有精神崩溃 I-I'm not falling apart. I'm not having a breakdown.
我只是真的真的很伤心 宝贝 I'm just really, really sad, baby.
我爸临死的时候 我... When my dad was dying, I...
我记得他说过 我们的人生 remember he said that it's the tragedies
是由生命中的悲剧定义的 that define our lives.
"生命中的悲剧就像篱笆栏一样 "They are the fence posts on which
串起了人生的其他部分 宝贝女儿" the rest of our lives hang, baby girl."
我经常会想起这句话 I always think about that.
就好像... Like...
我们的生活就挂在那里 our lives just hanging there,
挂在那些极其悲伤的栅栏之间 between these really sad fence posts.
宝贝 Baby.
你就是在悲剧中诞生的 You were born out of tragedy.
很多个悲剧 Multiple tragedies.
你失去了那么多 背负着那么多悲伤 All that loss, all that sadness.
可是看看你在栅栏之间挂上了什么 And look at what you've hung on your fence posts.
看看你眼前的一切 Look right in front of you.
看看这个房间里的一切... Right here in this room, and...
看看你从悲剧之中创造出了什么 I mean, look what you did with all of that.
你看到了吗 Do you see it?
我看到了 I see it.
你是个帅气而坚强的人 You are a beautiful, resilient man.
世界是一个精彩而顽强的地方 The world is a brilliant, resilient place.
我们要继续战斗下去 We fight on.
黎明前的黑暗之类的 Darkest before dawn and all that?
生活带给你柠檬般的酸楚 Sourest lemons life has to offer.
好了 那是你爱说的话 但你懂我意思吧 Okay, that's your thing, you know what I mean?
-我在用我的方式说 -好的 - I was doing my thing. - Mm-hmm.
能先按我的方式来吗 Can we stay with my thing?
-好的 -很好 - Yeah. - Okay.
这种痛苦终会消散 This pain is not forever.
这一刻的艰难不会永远存在 This moment in time is not forever.
没有什么是永恒的 除了我们 Nothing is forever, except us.
-我们要继续战斗下去 -我们要继续战斗下去 - We fight on. - We fight on.
-跟我说实话 -说什么 - Be honest with me. - Hmm?
你没有在偷偷期待 You're not, like, secretly expecting
-什么隆重的惊喜派对吧 -没有 - some big surprise party or anything? - Mm-mm, no.
我需要的一切都在这个房间里了 All I need is in this room right now.
我觉得今年不需要更多"意料之外"了 I think we could all use a year with no surprises.
-确实 -是啊 - Mm. Yes. - Yeah.
记下死亡时间 打电话叫车来 Let's mark the time and call it in.
还要打电话给警察和儿童服务机构 We need to call the cops and Child Services, too.
这里真是一团糟 This is a mess.
先生 你得在这里等着 Sir, we're gonna need you to wait here.
他去哪了 Where'd he go?
让警察来看看怎么处理吧 I'll let the cops figure out what to do about that.
等等 Wait.
等等 我好像摸到脉搏了 Wait. I think I've got a pulse.