《反恐特警队》前情提要 Previously on "SWAT"...
雷蒙特·哈里斯 Raymont Harris,
被特警队长巴克·斯皮维意外击中 was accidentally shot by team leader Buck Spivey.
我一辈子都在服务这个城市 I spent my life serving this city,
因为一个错误 我之前的所有成就 and I undid everything I had accomplished
都白费了 with a single mistake.
我们想开立一家私人保镖公司 We're looking to launch a private security firm.
自从离开特警队 我过得不是太好 I've struggled a bunch since leaving SWAT.
这件事可能是我的大转折 I mean, this could be big for me.
我加入 All right, let's do this.
巴克在里面是什么角色 Where does Buck fit into all this?
他不能当这家公司的门面 He can't be the name or face of this company.
你可以 You can.
演唱会策划气坏了 Concert promoter's pissed.
他一整天都联系不上巴克 He hasn't been able to reach Buck all day.
巴克到底怎么了 So what happens to Buck?
多数时候 我... Most times, I...
我遇到问题会跟家人或朋友说 I work stuff out by talking to my family or friends.
我知道他们会支持我 I know they have my back.
这让我心里有底 And that keeps me grounded.
但是 But...
今天是我第一次觉得我真的需要寻求专业帮助 ...today's the first time I felt like I really needed this.
毕竟你经历了这样的事 Because of what happened.
对 Yeah.
真得感觉很糟 That really sucked.
或许说出来会好受点 Maybe it'd be easier if we talk about it,
从头说起 from the beginning.
先是洪都 It started with Hondo.
十二小时前
很抱歉 We're sorry.
你拨打的号码语音信箱已满 The voice mailbox you've reached is full.
一切还好吗 宝贝 Everything okay, babe?
社区中心的管道晚上突然爆了 Yeah, a pipe burst overnight at the community center.
我得去看看有多严重 Got to get in and see how bad the damage is.
你手边有抽水泵吗 You got a sump pump you keep handy?
我也是新手 Oh, I'm fresh out, boo.
我发誓那地方会把我搞破产的 I swear that place is gonna drive me to bankruptcy.
状况不断 It's always something.
我知道这种感觉 Yeah, I know the feeling.
怎么了 What's up?
我联系不上巴克了 I just can't get ahold of Buck.
你之前的队长 Your old team leader?
-出什么事了吗 -大家都好几天没见着他了 - Something wrong? - No one's seen him in a few days.
迪肯说过他有点不在状态 And Deacon mentioned something was off about him,
现在他不接任何人的电话 and now he's not answering anybody's calls.
-也许是短途旅行去维加斯了 -不知道 - Quick trip to Vegas maybe? - I don't know.
之前他出了状况就这样 He's fell off the grid like this a couple times before
消失过几次 所以我准备 when something was wrong, so I'm just gonna
去他家看看 stop by his place and check in.
应该去一趟 I think you should.
爱你 Love you.
再见 Bye.
好吧 巴克会在后院放一把备用钥匙 All right, Buck keeps a spare key around back.
上次我担心他去看他就是这么进去的 That's what got me in the last time I was worried about him.
巴克 Buck?
你在家吗 You home?
看下房间里和车库 Check the rooms and the garage.
好 Yeah.
没看到他 No sign of him.
车也不在 Car's gone, too.
我知道巴克喜欢喝几杯 但这... Man, I know Buck likes to throw a few back, but this is...
有点太多了 it's a lot.
他手机没电了 His phone's dead.
在卧室发现了这个 安眠药 Found these in the bedroom. Sleeping pills.
其余房间都和这里差不多 Rest of the rooms look like this one?
嗯 Yeah.
看上去最近几通电话 Looks like the last couple of calls
是昨天打给了一个叫欧文·本尼特的 went to an Owen Bennett yesterday.
那是我们的私人保全公司的合伙人 That's our business partner at the private security firm.
另外只有一个1800开头的电话 There's only one other call to a 1-800 number.
你已接通全美预防自杀生命热线 You have reached the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline,
及退伍军人服务热线 also servicing the Veteran's Crisis Line.
如果你遭遇了情绪困扰或自杀危机 If you are in emotional distress or suicidal crisis
或是你所关心的人可能有此倾向 or are concerned about someone who might be,
我们可以提供帮助 we're here to help.
-请不要挂机... -打了多久 - Please remain on the... - How long was the call?
上面显示有一分钟 也就是说可能更短 It says one minute, which means it could've been less.
他可能打过去就挂了 枪柜也空了 He might've just called and hung up. Gun safe's empty, too.
联系20队其余队员 Get ahold of the rest of 20-Squad.
我们现在得找到巴克 We got to track Buck down now.
-你打算怎么找 -没想好 - How do you plan on doing that? - I'm not sure.
不过我有种很不好的预感 But I got a real bad feeling
我们没时间出错了 we don't have time to get it wrong.
反恐特警队 第三季第十八集
我爸很讨厌麦克林托克队长 What Dad used to hate it our when Captain McClintock
逼他去做这样的心理辅导 made him do these sessions.
-为什么 -他觉得这些都没用 - Why's that? - He thought they were B.S.
需要心理治疗的都不配做警察 That anyone who needed therapy wasn't fit to be a cop.
他之前经常告诫我 He used to tell me,
"一个人连自己的问题都处理不好 "How can you trust somebody to have your back
你还怎么信任他能好好支持你" when they don't even have their own issues squared away?"
我每年都要看上百位警员 卢卡 I see hundreds of officers every year, Luca.
你对他们有什么看法 Do you feel that way about them?
没有 No.
我能理解我们现在为什么要来 I mean, I get why we do it now.
尤其是经历这样的一天 Especially after a day like today.
巴克和我老爸一样是老派作风 Well, Buck was old school like my pops.
他也不喜欢找警局的心理医生 He didn't like talking to the cop shrink, either.
或许这能帮助到他 Maybe it would've helped him.
今天的事情会不会让你对 Has what happened today given you second thoughts
重新回到前线有所迟疑 about getting back into the field?
不会 我等不及要回去了 Nah, I can't wait to get back out there.
但是要是说我一点不担心是假的 But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried.
要是我做不到呢 I mean, what if I can't?
我的体能测试已经有一次没过了 I already failed one fitness test.
我本以为是因为我的伤势 I thought it was because of my hip.
但其实... What if it's really...
是这里的问题 up here, you know?
治好这里并不容易 That's not so easy to fix.
你害怕失去特警队的位置 Is losing SWAT something you're afraid of?
只要特警队还在 For as long as SWAT's existed,
卢卡就永远不离队 there's always been a Luca on the team.
离开特警队 Without it...
我就不知道自己是谁了 I don't know who I am.
或许巴克也有这种感觉 Maybe that's how Buck felt, too.
十一个小时前
怎么样了 洪都 Hey, what's the word, Hondo?
巴克已经失联四十八小时了 Buck's been AWOL for 48 hours
我们觉得他可能想自杀 and we think he might be having suicidal thoughts.
把消息放给巡警 有些是他在都市警局的老同事 Put the word out with patrols, some of his old metro buddies.
要是他们找到他了会联系我们的 They're gonna reach out if they locate him.
希望不算太迟 Hopefully, it's not too late.
什么 这话什么意思 What? What's that supposed to mean?
巴克不在这 我们不知道他去哪了 Buck's not here and we don't know where he's headed.
所以我们需要找到他 Yeah, well, that's why we need to find him.
会找到的 巴克会没事的 We will. Buck will be fine.
有一点是确定的 傻站在这 One thing's for sure: we ain't gonna find Buck
是找不到巴克的 我们来计划一下 just standing around here, so let's plan this out.
好 克里斯和我可以去问问欧文 All right, Chris and I can go talk to Owen.
最后两通电话是打给他的 Last two calls he made were to him.
谭 你去查查巴克有没有 Tan, I want you to check and see if Buck stopped
在市里他最常去的地方出现过 at any of his favorite haunts around town.
-你知道地方的 -好 - You know the places. - Yeah.
斯特里特和我去找巴克的前妻珍妮 Street and I will try to find Buck's ex-wife Jenny,
看看他有没有联系她 see if he reached out to her.
卢卡 你在他家里等着 以防他回家 Luca, you sit on his house in case he comes home.
好了 当心 我们认为巴克 All right, be careful. We think Buck is armed
带了武器 还喝了酒 and he may be drinking.
真是个恐怖的组合 That's a scary combination.
手机带在身边 And keep your phones close.
今天是洛克和贝克尔的小队出勤 Rocker and Becker's teams are up today,
但我们也随时待命 以防市里有紧急情况 but we're on call in case anything else pops off in the city.
-行动 -好 - Let's get it done. - Okay.
收到你的语音信息了 Got your voice mail.
听起来很紧急 It sounded urgent.
今天巴克有来过吗 Did Buck stop by here today?
来过 来辞职 Yeah. To resign from the company.
-什么时候 -几小时前 - When? - A few hours ago.
很奇怪 他向我道歉 It was strange. He apologized.
说他让我和公司失望了 Said that he's been letting me and the company down,
他要辞职 不想耽误我们 that he needed to resign and get out of our way.
没错 他的工作状态是每况愈下 Yeah, his work has been slipping,
不过如果是我 我会鼓励他让他重回正轨 but I would've got him back on track,
-说服他不要辞职 -我试过了 - talked him out of quitting. - I tried.
但他执意如此 But he insisted.
他说了他要做什么 Did he say anything about what he was doing
或他要去哪吗 or where he was going?
没有 什么都没说 No, nothing.
抛开工作不谈 Work aside,
巴克是我的朋友 Buck's a friend.
他没事吧 Is he okay?
洪都 吉姆 Hondo, Jim.
好久不见 Long time.
很高兴见到你 珍妮 It's nice to see you, Jenny.
巴克出什么事了吗 Did something happen to Buck?
你好像一点都不觉得意外 You say that like it wouldn't be a surprise.
意外吗 Well, would it be?
他一直都喝得很凶 He's been drinking, a lot.
不见我们 不接我们的电话 Avoiding us, not answering calls.
跟我说实话 有多糟 How bad is it, honestly?
珍妮 我们担心他可能会伤害自己 Jenny, we're worried that he might hurt himself.
你最近见过他吗 Have you seen him lately?
他有联系过你吗 Did he reach out at all?
他几晚前来找过我 He stopped by a couple of nights ago,
但我不在家 but I wasn't home.
他给我留了一张黑胶唱片 He left me a vinyl record:
马文·盖伊的《该放手了》 "Got to Give It Up" By Marvin Gaye.
他只要听到这首歌 Whenever we heard that song,
就会拉我起来一起跳舞 he'd pull me up and we'd start dancing.
不管是在酒吧 餐厅 Bars, restaurants,
还是商店冰淇淋货架旁的走道上 down the middle of the ice cream aisle at the store.
不过那是之前的巴克了 现在他已经变了 That was a different Buck, though, different times.
他只是现在比较煎熬 He's just going through a rough patch right now.
你们真的不知道吗 You really don't know, do you?
巴克离开特警队后 After Buck left SWAT,
我们试过复合 拯救我们的婚姻 we tried to reconcile, save our marriage.
他一直都有心结 He'd always had his struggles,
但雷蒙特·哈里斯中枪的事发生后就愈发严重了 but it got worse after the Raymont Harris shooting.
焦虑 抑郁 Anxiety, depression,
情绪波动 mood swings.
有时他完全不能入睡 Sometimes he couldn't sleep at all
除非他喝个酩酊大醉 unless he got blackout drunk.
你们听说过梦游吗 You've heard of sleepwalking?
有几晚 他在睡梦中想逮捕我 Some nights, he'd try to arrest me in his sleep.
有几次还不小心把我的头撞在了床头柜上 Accidentally bounced my head on the nightstand a couple times.
我不能再在他身边了 I couldn't stay around anymore.
我试过让他找人聊聊 寻求帮助 I tried to get him to talk to somebody, get some help.
但他太在意别人的看法 But he was too worried about how it would look,
担心别人觉得顶天立地的巴克·斯皮维软弱 the great Buck Spivey seeming weak.
我还是很恨这个声音 I still hate that sound.
现在我也不敢说我很喜欢听到 Yeah, I can't say we're a big fan of it either right now.
挟持人质案件 Barricade with hostages.
洛克和贝克尔无法回应 我们上 Rocker and Becker can't respond. We're up.
-谢谢 -洪都 - Thanks. - Hondo.
如果找到他了 是生是死都给我个电话 Call me if you find him, either way.
我会的 I will.
好了 卢卡 我派了警员去找他 All right, Luca, I got unis out looking for him,
给他的车发了协查通告 a BOLO on his truck.
一找到他我就会通知洪都 I'll let you and Hondo know as soon as I spot him.
你那边有什么情况立即告诉我 Keep me updated on your end.
艾丽西娅·鲍德温 Alicia Baldwin.
指挥官罗伯特·希克斯 Commander Robert Hicks.
我猜猜看 你是律师 Let me guess: lawyer?
听说你现在很忙 I've been told you have a situation,
所以我就直奔主题了 so I'll cut to the chase.
我是来见丹尼尔·哈里森警司的 I'm here to see Sergeant Daniel Harrelson.
有什么事 Regarding what?
我是代表我的委托人 I'm here on behalf of my client,
他希望身份完全保密 who values anonymity and total privacy.
我受指示只能和哈里森警司谈 I've been instructed to only speak with Sergeant Harrelson.
他出去出任务了 Well, he's out on the job right now
一时半会回不来 and he won't be back for quite some time.
你不介意的话 我就在这等他 Oh, I'll just wait for him here if you don't mind.
这里不是星巴克 This isn't a Starbucks.
我就在这 Even so.
你是都市警局第一个到现场的 Hey, you're first with metro on the scene.
巴罗斯 现在什么情况 Burrows. So what's the situation?
看上去是抢劫升级 Looks like a robbery gone bad.
里面有一名持枪嫌犯 大约是名人质 One armed suspect inside, about ten hostages,
至少一人受伤 at least one wounded.
警员没看清里面情况 他们一来 Unis didn't get a good look. As soon as they arrived,
嫌犯就朝他们开了几枪 suspect took a couple shots at them,
在门前设了障碍 拉上了窗帘 barricaded the front, pulled the blinds.
-他提要求了吗 -没有明确的要求 - He make any demands? - Nothing coherent.
这家伙嗑晕了头 我猜是冰毒 Guy's high as hell. I'm guessing meth.
非常不稳定 不好预测 So unstable and unpredictable.
洪都和斯特里特刚到 Hondo and Street just got here.
他们在西侧布置 They're gearing up on the four side.
好了 先看看里面的情况 All right, let's get eyes inside,
找到最佳切入点 安全救出人质 find our best entry, get these hostages out alive.
25D呼叫20D 25-David to 20-David.
后屋东侧有六名人质 I got six hostages in a back room on the two side.
嫌犯左腿受伤 Suspect's got a wound to his left leg.
他在移动 He's on the move.
我现在能看清了 I've got eyes now.
嫌犯在用餐区 北边 Suspect's in the dining area, the one side.
餐厅东北角还发现八名人质 I count eight more hostages in the one-four corner
一共是十四名 of the dining room; that makes 14 total.
我看到那个受伤的人质了 情况不乐观 I see the wounded hostage. Doesn't look good.
那我们得快速行动了 Then we need to move fast.
洛城警局 立刻趴下 LAPD! Get on the ground now!
斯特里特 克里斯 上 Street, Chris, coming your way.
不许动 Don't move!
-把手给我 -无需支援 - Give me your hands. - Code 4.
嫌犯已收押 Suspect in custody.
收到洪都的消息了 Heard from Hondo.
铁板烧枪手已经落案 We're a Code 4 on the hibachi grill shooter.
-你朋友吗 -不是 - Friend of yours? - Hardly.
不过她来得真不是时候 She couldn't have picked a worse possible day to show up, though.
我都还没抽出空 I haven't had a spare moment
去搞清楚她来的目的 to figure out what the hell she wants.
我调查了一下 Well, I did some digging.
她不是那种处理交通意外的低级律师 She's not just some ambulance chaser.
她是个狠角色 She's a power hitter.
她是科德罗拉斯克律师事务所的初级合伙人 She's a junior partner at Cordero-Lask.
有人付她八百美元的时薪 Someone's paying her 800 bucks an hour
就为了让她坐这儿等着 just to sit on her ass?
有什么地方不对劲 Something doesn't add up.
不如我们去探探她的底 Then how about we check her math?
所以 So,
科德罗拉斯克律所 what on earth could Cordero-Lask want
来找市特警队有何贵干 with Metro SWAT?
我只是想找哈里森警司谈谈 My business is strictly with Sergeant Harrelson.
但你知道他不在 But you know he isn't here.
我的委托人坚持要 Well, still, my client is insistent
尽快搞定这件事 所以我会继续等 on resolving this matter quickly, so I'll wait.
再不说我就把你扔出去了 I'm about two seconds from kicking you out of here.
我做错什么了吗 Have I done something wrong?
我是来找哈里森警司的 I'm here to speak with Sergeant Harrelson,
不是特警队 也不是洛杉矶警局 not SWAT or the LAPD.
你针对我的属下 就是针对整个特警队 You go after one of my officers, you go after all of SWAT.
艾丽西娅 你这个高度机密任务 Alicia, is this super secret task of yours
涉及到对哈里森警司或是特警队的诉讼吗 going to involve litigation for Sergeant Harrelson or SWAT?
不涉及 是私人事务 No. This is a personal matter,
我的委托人希望此事不要曝光给媒体 one my client would prefer to keep out of the press.
你要是一开始就这么说 Well, it would've been a lot easier
那事情就好办多了 if you just said that in the beginning.
我们还在询问人质 We're still interviewing hostages,
但已经得到了坏消息 but already got bad news.
餐厅枪击事件的起因 The restaurant shootout
是两名笨手笨脚的枪手实施抢劫未遂 started as a botched robbery with two gunmen.
另一名枪手在警方到达之前就逃走了 The other shooter fled before LAPD arrived.
所以还有一个枪手在逍遥法外 So there's a second shooter still out there.
-有身份信息吗 -还没有 - Any I.D.? - None yet.
我的人已经在看监控录像了 I got my guys reviewing security footage,
寻找线索 running down leads.
等有线索了我会告诉特警队的 I'll loop SWAT back in when we have anything.
好 Okay.
跟我说点好消息 卢卡 Tell me something good, Luca.
我在巴克家有所发现 Think I got something here at Buck's place.
我刚刚发现了一个仓库的文件 I just found some paperwork to a storage unit.
刚刚跟那里的经理通完电话 Got off the phone with the manager.
他说巴克的车现在就停在那里 He said Buck's car is parked there right now.
-仓库在哪里 -市中心附近 我刚告诉洪都 - Where is it? - Near Downtown. I just told Hondo.
把地址发给我 我们到那儿碰头 Text the address. We'll meet you there.
巴克的车 Buck's truck.
里面没人 No Buck.
他的仓库编号是多少 What's his storage unit number?
A308 Unit A308.
我看到了 就在这里 I see it. Right here.
谭 打开 Tan, open it up.
他肯定就在附近 He's got to be someplace close.
好了 卢卡 谭 你们去办公室 All right, Luca, Tan, check the office.
看看经理有没有看到他去哪儿了 去 See if the manager saw him go anywhere. Go.
这张小票是今天早上的 This receipt is from this morning.
你见过巴克买三百块的酒吗 You ever known Buck to drop $300 on a bottle before?
没有 他理发都从不超过十五块 No. He never spent a penny over 15 bucks for a haircut.
机油 还没干 Motor oil. Fresh.
这里就是他放哈雷摩托车的地方 This is where he kept his Harley.
我都不知道他平时骑哈雷 I never knew he rode one.
这辆不是用来骑的 是他用来改装的收藏品 Uh, he didn't, really. It was a collectible he liked working on.
46年的哈雷拳头 '46 Knucklehead.
他总是在鼓捣那东西 He was tinkering with that thing constantly.
说是能让他减压 Said it helped him de-stress.
这么说他喝醉了酒 还骑着一辆平时不骑的摩托车 So, he's drinking, driving a bike he's not used to riding.
如果他撞车了 看起来只会是 If he crashes with some car, it's just gonna look
一起醉驾事故 like another drunk driving accident.
我们走 Let's go.
失去挚爱之人从不是轻松的事 Losing a loved one is never easy.
是 Yeah, well, uh,
我现在对此已经多有体会了 I've had plenty of experience with that by now.
无论以何种方式 One way or another,
身边的人总是会离开我 people always leave.
我很遗憾 I'm sorry.
-没事 我能消化 -怎么消化 - It's okay. I can deal with it. - How?
你是怎么消化的 How do you deal with it?
束之高阁 By putting it on a shelf.
等以后我准备好了再来面对 Coming back to it later when I'm ready.
这听起来像... Mm, that sounds like...
心理区隔化 Compartmentalization?
我看了精神疾病诊断与统计手册 Yeah, I, uh, I skimmed enough of the DSM
我知道这是一种常见的心理应对方式 to know it's a common coping strategy.
这样做事有风险的 It comes with risks.
你不去理会这些问题 Do you know what happens
当这些放置着你的情绪的盒子 when you don't deal with those issues
再也塞不下时 你知道会怎么样吗 and the mental boxes you put your feelings in start to overflow?
根据手册上写的 According to the manual,
焦虑 抑郁 药物依赖 anxiety, depression, addiction.
可能更糟 Or worse.
你可能会发现自己与巴克的境况一样 You could find yourself in Buck's shoes.
巴克总会在我生日时给我打电话 Buck always called me on my birthday.
每年都打 从不会错过 Every year. He never missed it.
连我的亲妈好几次都忘记了 My own mother, she forgot more than once.
今天 Today
是我第一次想到 was the first time I thought,
"如果我再也接不到他的电话了 会怎么样" "What's it gonna be like when I don't get that call ever again?"
指挥官 我需要私下和你聊聊 Commander, I need a word with you in private.
现在不行 Not now.
去我的办公室 My office.
-那人是谁 -回头再谈她的事 - Who was that? - We'll deal with her later.
巴克有新消息吗 What's the latest on Buck?
巴克今天买了一瓶三百块的威士忌 长官 Buck dropped $300 on a bottle of scotch today, sir.
他没有用现金 我们得尽快找到他 He didn't use cash. We got to find him soon.
你想让我追查他的信用卡 You want me to track his credit cards.
这样在他再买东西时我们能知道他在哪 So we can locate him in case he makes another purchase.
这不太符合规定 It's not exactly by the book.
管它什么规定 为了巴克 Well, throw out the book. For Buck.
你和兰帕特区的热雷米亚斯警司共事过吗 Did you ever work with a Sergeant Geremias out of Rampart?
没有 No.
很早以前我和他一起做过巡警 I worked patrol with him way back.
警局里最逗的人 Funniest guy to ever don the uniform.
他特喜欢笑 什么都要开开玩笑 He was always laughing and joking about something.
谁也没料到 Nobody saw it coming.
两年前在他的车库里自杀了 Killed himself in his garage two years ago.
他妻子发现了他 His wife found him.
那天是他儿子的五岁生日 It was his son's fifth birthday.
我已经去过太多警察的葬礼了 I've been to too many cops' funerals already.
我会想办法追查他的信用卡 I'll find a way to cut corners and track his credit cards.
你把巴克找回来 You bring Buck home.
劫案凶杀专案组 RHD just got a line
刚刚接到餐馆抢劫案第二名枪手的线报 on the second shooter from the restaurant robbery.
洛克和贝克尔的小队还在 Rocker and Becker's squads are still tied up
韩国城和罪犯对峙 20小队负责这事 at the barricade at K-town. 20-Squad's got this.
劫案凶杀专案组认定第二名枪手 All right, RHD identified the second shooter
是艾伦·达比 as Aaron Darby.
最后现身的地点是阿莱塔的一间公寓 LKA is an apartment in Arleta.
与我和斯特里特之前撂倒的那家伙有什么关系吗 Any relation to the dude Street and I pancaked earlier?
形影不离的毒友 Tweaker twins.
他们俩非法持有毒品的犯罪记录都一样 And they've got matching records for drug possession.
我打赌抢餐馆的钱 Bet the restaurant was a cash grab
就是为了下一发抽个大的 for their next big score.
我们得确保他们很长一段时间都不能兴风作浪了 We're gonna make sure this is their last score for a long time.
我和希克斯谈了 Hey. I talked to Hicks.
只要巴克一用信用卡 我们就会知道 We'll know the moment Buck uses his credit card.
眼下我们把精力放在公事上 For now, we stay focused on the job.
头脑保持冷静 We keep it loose.
洛城警局 LAPD!
-两人一组 -二 - Give me a two! - Two!
-二 二 -二 二 二 - Two! Two! - Two, two, two, two, two!
-安全 -安全 - Clear! - Clear!
两人一组 Give me a two!
厨房安全 Kitchen clear!
20D呼叫指挥部 This is 20-David to Command.
没有人 没看到达比 All clear. No sign of Darby.
我有发现 弹孔 I got something. Bullet holes.
看起来子弹是 Looks like the shots
从墙的另外一侧打过来的 came from the other side of the wall.
没有报警说有人开枪 There were no reports of shots fired.
可能是前一阵子的事 May have happened a while ago.
这个地址有女性住户吗 Any record of a female occupant at this address?
没有 只有达比 No, only Darby.
-怎么了 -身份证写的是这个地址 - What? - I.D. lists this address.
只不过是楼里另外一户 Just a different unit in the building.
钱包看起来是偷来的 Purse looks stolen.
达比可能就藏在隔壁 我们走 Darby could still be hiding next door. Let's move.
20D呼叫指挥部 发现强行闯入的痕迹 20-David to Command. We got signs of forced entry.
隔壁有人开枪 Gunshots from the adjacent unit.
嫌疑人可能在里面 Suspect may be inside.
准备进入 Making entry.
安全 Clear!
衣帽间安全 Closet clear.
出去 Get out of here.
我来上报 I'll call it in.
维克托 Victor.
维克多 Victor?
为什么被那个毛绒玩具吸引了注意力 What was it about that stuffed animal that caught your eye?
它让我想起了几年前 It reminded me of a teddy bear
我送给我侄女的一只泰迪熊 that I got my niece a couple years ago.
她很喜欢它 Yeah, she loved that thing.
她叫它莱西熊 Called it her Rexy Bear.
我当时止不住地想 And all I could do was picture my niece
躺在那的孩子是我侄女 lying in that baby's place.
我一心只想杀死 And think about how badly I wanted to kill
残害那对母女的混账 the bastard who did that to that mom and kid.
经历了今天这些事 It's completely normal to feel that way
你会这样想很正常 given what you witnessed today.
从他们尸体的样子可以判断 And we could tell by the way their bodies were...
母亲死前在拼命保护她的女儿 that the mom died trying to protect her little girl.
我女友邦妮 My girlfriend Bonnie--
我们会讨论结婚 生小孩 we talk about getting married, having kids.
但每到这种时候 我... But on days like this, I...
我们看过不少十恶不赦的罪案 We see a lot of heinous crap.
大部分我都能撇开不想 但是 And I can brush most of it off, but...
我们今天看到的那一幕 what we saw today,
会一直印在我心里 that's gonna stay with me.
你有没有想过 和邦妮聊聊这种感受 Have you thought about exploring these feelings with Bonnie?
我不愿把这些加诸在她身上 I don't want to put that on her.
用我工作中最丑恶的东西 You know, it's not fair to dirty her up
来玷污她的心灵 这不公平 with the worst stuff I see on this job.
你一般会怎么消化 So how do you usually cope?
心情不好时 我一般下班去健身房 On bad days, usually go to my gym after work.
打篮球打到双腿失去知觉 Play pickup ball till I can't feel my legs.
我说不清楚 但这样有用 I can't really explain it, but it works.
这比其它的方法都要健康 That's healthier than other options.
你想聊聊巴克吗 Do you want to talk about Buck?
不想 Not really.
我还是自己去健身房消化吧 I think I'll save that for the gym.
六小时前
我只是想把血迹洗干净 Just trying to get the blood off.
据我所知 用肥皂洗比砸柜子管用 Last I checked, soap works better than steel.
是 Yeah.
那一切 All that...
是为了什么 for what?
就是某些人渣为了拿到些现金吗 So, uh, some junkie can score some cash?
我们该早点赶到那栋屋子 We should've been in that house sooner.
在我们查出他的名字前 达比就已经杀了那家人 Darby killed that family long before we even knew his name.
没人能够阻止他 Nobody could've stopped it.
没有吗 邻居不行吗 No one? Not even a neighbor?
同事 爱人 该死的邮差都不行吗 Or a coworker or-or a loved one or-or the friggin' mailman?
肯定有人看到或听到什么了 肯定有 Someone had to see or hear something. Someone!
我们没法救下所有人 斯特里特 We can't save everybody, Street.
从第一天起 巴克就反复告诉我这一点 Buck drilled that into me from day one.
我知道 我也是 I know. Me, too.
我们怎么就没发现 How did we miss this?
我们怎么没发现他那么痛苦 How did we miss how much he was hurting?
他太骄傲 不愿让我们看出一点迹象 He was too proud to show us any signs.
是吗 还是说是我们自己不愿意看到 Was he? Or did we just not want to see it
因为我们不愿意直面自己的问题 'cause we don't want to deal with-with our stuff head-on?
从警校开始 Straight out of the academy,
我们就被教导 不要表露自己的情绪 we are taught not to wear our emotions on our sleeves.
你最不希望的事 The last thing you want is
就是在行动中 被坏蛋看出你眼里的恐惧 some bad guy to see fear in your eyes while you're on a beat.
那会使你成为被攻击的目标 That is how you become a target.
时间越久 你就越会隐藏一切 Over time, you just get really good at hiding everything.
有时也许隐藏得过于好了 Sometimes too good, I guess.
我刚失去哥哥 I just lost my brother.
我无法承受再失去巴克 I can't handle losing Buck now, too.
所以我们必须得找到他 That is why we have to find him.
哈里森警司 我想占用你一点时间 Sergeant Harrelson, need a minute of your time.
我没时间 I don't have a minute.
这里好像人人都没时间 No one around here seems to.
我的客户想代表你们做一笔捐赠 My client would like to make a donation on your behalf.
捐赠吗 A donation?
-给谁 -反恐特警队 或你们选的慈善机构 - To who? - To SWAT, or to a charity of your choice.
你的客户是谁 Who is the client?
我被授命对此保密 I've been instructed not to say.
那就让你客户硬气一点 All right, you tell your client to soldier up
自己做决定 and make the decision himself.
捐赠金额为一百万美元 It's a one million dollar donation.
好吧 这到底是为了什么 Okay. What's this really about?
我不能说 但我可以保证 I can't say, but I can guarantee
这份好意的出处绝对是最好的 that this gesture comes from the best of places.
洪都 Hey, Hondo?
我们有发现 能谈谈吗 We got something. Can I talk to you?
对不起 我不能接受 I'm sorry. I can't accept.
除非知道客户的身份 Not until I know who the client is
和他们宣称愿意捐资七位数的原因 and why they are allegedly willing to drop seven figures.
特雷弗 送她出去 Trevor, see her out.
巴克的信用卡刚刚在卡斯泰克的一家饭店有消费 We just got a hit on Buck's credit card at a diner out in Castaic.
你有那个地方的电话号码吗 You got a number for the place?
有 发给你了 Yeah, just sent it to you.
好 迪肯离那里最近 All right, Deacon's the closest.
把地址发给他 让他尽快到达 Get him the address, tell him to get there ASAP,
-我也会尽快与他会面 -好 - and I'll meet him as soon as I can. - Yeah.
斯皮维先生 有个找你的电话 Uh, Mr. Spivey, there's a phone call for you.
什么 一定是搞错了吧 What? That's, uh... that's got to be a mistake.
没有人知道我在这 No one knows I'm here.
他说是很重要的事 He said it's important.
好吧 谢谢 Okay. Thanks.
你好 Hello?
巴克 Buck.
真高兴听到你的声音 I'm so glad to hear your voice.
洪都 你有什么事吗 Hondo, what do you want?
我是打电话来确认你的安全的 I'm just calling to check in on you.
好吧 现在不是叙旧的好时机 Yeah, it's, uh, not a good time.
听着 Listen.
待在那个地方别离开 Just stay right there.
我会来见你 And I'll come see you,
然后就像我们一直想安排的那样 一起就餐 and we can have that meal we've been trying to schedule.
改天再说吧 我得挂了 Rain check, okay? I, uh, I got to go.
不要 等一下 巴克 No, wait. Buck, wait.
巴克 你是不是在考虑自杀 Buck... are you thinking about killing yourself?
听着 洪都 我从来没有怪过你任何事 Look, I never blamed you, Hondo, for anything.
我希望你知道这点 I hope you know that.
不要 巴克 No, Buck.
巴克 Buck!
谢谢 吉雅 Thanks, Gia.
不客气 You're welcome.
我希望我们是错的 I was just hoping we were wrong...
巴克没事 Buck was fine.
我希望这件事是真的 I didn't want it to be real.
但是内心深处 我认为 But deep down, I suppose, I, uh...
我知道他在挣扎 I knew he was struggling.
否认比面对要容易 Denial is easier than confrontation.
面对别人也是工作职责的一部分 Confronting people is part of the job description.
也是我的工作职责 Mine, too.
但这不是随随便便的什么人 But this wasn't just anybody.
这是你尊敬并敬爱的人 It was somebody you loved and respected.
我很害怕破坏我和巴克的关系 I was afraid of damaging my relationship with Buck.
我觉得如果我提起那件事他会恨我 I thought he might hate me if I brought it up,
而他认为我会觉得他很软弱 and he'd think I was calling him weak.
我只是不知道他怎么会坠落地这么快这么远 I just don't get how he fell so far so fast.
我到底错过了什么 I mean, what did I miss?
雷蒙特·哈里斯枪击案 The Raymont Harris shooting?
他的离婚 His divorce?
长期的疼痛 The chronic pain?
不再是特警队成员 Not being on SWAT anymore?
还有孤独 And the loneliness.
任一时刻都不会导致自残 No one moment can lead to self-harm.
这是随着时间的推移 许多问题累积的后果 It's a buildup of many issues over time.
身体和精神上的创伤 Physical and emotional traumas.
巴克看到的创伤远比他能承受的更多 Buck saw more than his fair share of trauma.
-这是肯定的 -你们都是如此 - That's for damn sure. - You all do.
想想你和你的队伍今天所经历的 Look at what you and your team experienced today.
一个脸上受到枪击的一岁小女孩 A one-year-old with a gunshot wound to her face,
因为想要保护她 背部受到多次枪击的母亲 a mom trying to protect her, shot multiple times in the back.
我甚至想象不到比这更可怕的事 I can't even think of anything more awful.
警察患创伤后应激障碍 抑郁症的比例升高 Traumatic incidents like that are part of the reason
像这样的创伤性事件是部分原因 why cops have elevated rates of PTSD, depression...
还有自杀 And suicide.
我知道我们更倾向于自杀 I know we're more likely to kill ourselves
而不是因公殉职 than to die in the line of duty.
但是我们该怎么解决 But how do we fix it?
我希望我有解决方案 但是根本没有答案 I wish I had a simple answer for that, but there just isn't one.
迪肯在几分钟内赶到了小餐馆 Deacon got to the diner within minutes,
但是已经找不到巴克了 but there was no sign of Buck.
四小时前
他一定是在挂断电话后就离开了 He must have left right after he hung up.
我不知道 也许我根本不该打电话给他 I don't know. Maybe I screwed up by calling him.
他当时用信用卡付完账 他已经准备要走了 He'd used his credit card. He was already on his way out.
你打电话能让他知道我们在找他 我们关心他 This way, he knows we're looking for him and we care.
或者让他更快执行计划 Or it might make him go through with it faster.
在过去二十四小时内 These are the places Buck used his credit card
巴克在这些地方使用过信用卡 in the last 24 hours:
卡斯泰克的小餐馆 斯蒂文森牧场的加油站 the diner in Castaic, a gas station in Stevenson Ranch
还有北好莱坞的酒水商店 and a liquor store in North Hollywood.
仓库就在这里 Okay, the storage spot was right here.
看起来他买了酒 骑上了摩托车 Looks like he got the booze, picked up his bike,
在前往卡斯泰克的路上给车加满了油 filled his tank on the way to Castaic.
我刚和珍妮通完电话 Hey, I just got off the phone with Jenny.
巴克最喜欢在卡斯泰克餐馆吃早餐 Castaic Diner was Buck's favorite breakfast spot.
我就觉得眼熟 I knew I recognized it.
他们每次去露营都要在那里吃饭 They stopped there every time they went camping.
在卡斯泰克湖 巴克喜欢去那里钓鱼 At Castaic Lake. That's where Buck loves fishing.
湖离餐馆只有二十几公里 Castaic's only, like, 15 miles from that diner.
你们觉得他有可能是想去湖边吗 You think that's where he's headed?
把坐标传给迪肯 我和斯特里特去找他 Get the coordinates to Deac. Street and I will meet him.
开玩笑的吧 You got to be kidding.
协查通告匹配到了艾伦·达比 A BOLO hit on Aaron Darby
地点在他表兄城市露台的家里 at his cousin's place in City Terrace.
洛克和贝克尔的小队还在韩国城里 Rocker and Becker's squads still in K-Town.
20小队还在 20-Squad's still up.
好吧 去楼下把所有没任务的人喊上 All right, grab whoever's available downstairs
凑个小队出来 to fill up the squad.
-我们去捉拿这个混蛋 -巴克怎么办 - Let's go get this bastard. - What about Buck?
我们只能相信迪肯能找得到他了 We just got to have faith that Deac's gonna find him.
洛城警局 LAPD!
-趴下不许动 -达比在哪 - Stay down! - Where's Darby?!
趴下 Get down!
克里斯 楼上 快 Chris, upstairs. Move!
洛城警局 LAPD!
24D 交火 24-David! Shots fired.
嫌犯已逃出屋子 徒步向东逃跑 Suspect's outside, heading eastbound on foot.
25D正在追捕 25-David in pursuit!
26D 嫌犯翻墙进入了小巷 已逃出视野 26-David. Suspect over the wall into the alley. Lost visual.
继续追捕 我马上就到 Stay on him. I'm on my way.
他自己跳到车子前面 He jumped out in front of me.
别给我扣下扳机的理由 Don't give me another reason to pull this trigger.
把手给我 Give me your hands.
迪肯 情况如何 Deacon, what do you got?
我找到巴克了 I found Buck.
准备接近 I'm gonna engage.
现在把坐标发给你 I'll send you the coordinates now.
我们尽快赶过去 Be there as fast as we can.
最近如何 巴克 How's it going, Buck?
不怎么样 迪肯 Had better days, Deac.
我听说了 I hear that.
我也不好 Me, too.
今天发生什么事了 让你产生轻生的想法 Something happen today that make you want to hurt yourself?
别再靠近了 That's close enough.
我记得你提到过这里 I remember you talking about this place.
景色很美 It's beautiful.
想来这里要走很远吧 It's a bit of a hike to get up here.
我知道这个套路 迪肯 I know this routine, Deac.
先用同情与对方建立融洽的气氛 Build an empathy, rapport influence.
叫"行为变化阶梯"吧 The Behavioral Change Stairway?
还是我教给你的 I taught it to you.
你带武器了吗 Do you have a weapon?
你觉得呢 What do you think?
我想知道你为什么选择轻生 I need to know why you want to kill yourself.
因为 迪肯 Well, because, Deac,
每个人最终都会被榨干价值 eventually, a man just outlives his usefulness,
也就没有理由继续了 and then there's just no point.
什么理由 No point to what?
继续伪装的理由 迪肯 再也没有了 To pretending anymore, Deac, just to any of it.
巴克 总有活下去的理由的 Buck, there's always a point.
有我在 我们一起好好谈谈吧 I'm here. Let's just... let's just work this out together.
我已经决定了 迪肯 I've made up my mind, Deac.
你回家陪陪安妮和孩子们吧 You should go home to Annie and the kids.
没人能阻止我 我也不想让你看到 This is happening, and I don't want you to see it.
回家吧 迪肯 Go home, Deac.
我知道你不顺心 I know things are bad right now.
我理解 真的 I know, and I-I just, I...
但如果你跟我谈谈 我没准能帮到你 I think I can help you if you just talk to me.
迪肯 我已经说了半个小时了 Deac, I've been saying it for the last 30 minutes, man.
我不想再费唇舌了 I'm done talking.
我没有任何想说的了 I'm just done talking, all right?
你走吧 Please just go.
请离开 Please just...
你把他们也喊来了 You called in the cavalry?
停下 Stop!
如果你们是来告诉我我正在铸成大错的话 If you're here to tell me that I'm making a big mistake,
别费事了 你们是在浪费自己的时间 don't bother, all right? You're wasting your time.
巴克 你永远值得我们这么做 Buck, you are worth our time.
不 我不值得的 No, I'm not worth your time.
以前的我值得 I used to be.
但现在的我... You know, but now I'm just...
我只是一具空壳罢了 I'm a, I'm a shell of myself, guys.
别假装你们看不出来 I mean, come on. You see it.
是你把我们带进20小组的 You brought us into 20-Squad.
也是你教导我们永远不要抛弃任何一个队友 And it was you that taught us you don't leave a man behind.
今天也不能例外 We're not gonna, we're not gonna start that today.
我在20小队的人生结束了 没有我的位置了 Oh, my 20-Squad's finished. It's not me anymore.
别说胡话 巴克 你永远属于20小队 Of course it is, Buck. You're still one of us, man.
你错了 洪都 我不是 No, no, Hondo, I'm not one of you.
我早就不属于小队了 I'm not one of you guys anymore.
早在我误杀雷蒙特之前 I was, I was barely keeping it together
就已经在苦苦支撑了 before I... before I shot Raymont.
我失去了我的珍妮 I lost, I lost my Jenny.
我失去了特警队 I lost SWAT.
我无法入睡 I-I can't, I can't sleep.
我的膝盖 背部 都如火烧般灼痛 My knees, my back, on fire.
每天如此 Every day.
我感觉一切都太沉重了 Everything just feels so... just heavy.
我甚至数不清有多少夜晚 I can't even count the nights that I just
我期待并祈祷着我的生命能够熄灭 hope and I pray that the lights up here would just go out,
这样痛苦就能消失 you know, just so that the pain would just go away.
我累了 哥们 我厌倦了 I'm tired, man. I'm sick of it.
我厌倦了希望 厌倦了等待 I'm sick of hoping and I'm sick of waiting for this.
会有解决办法的 哥们 你心里明白 There's ways of getting better, man, and you know that.
我不在乎了 I don't, I don't care.
我不在乎有没有了 哥们 I don't care if there are, man.
我只是 我受够了 I'm just... I'm done.
我受够了 洪都 I'm done, Hondo.
我知道你很痛苦 I know you're in a lot of pain.
所以你才不明白失去你我们会多么痛苦 And that's why you can't see how losing you is gonna hurt us.
之前没有我你也过得很好 You've been fine without me.
以后也会的 You'll be fine.
不会的 I won't.
巴克 Buck,
如果不是你出现在我的生活中 if you didn't come into my life,
我不知道自己会变成什么样 I don't know where I'd be.
我都不知道我能不能活到现在 I-I d-- I don't even know if I'd be alive right now.
巴克 你是我拥有过最像我父亲的人 Buck, you are the closest thing I ever had to a father.
莱拉和马修怎么办 What about Lila and Matthew?
当他们问起他们的叔叔是怎么死的 What am I gonna tell them
我该如何回答他们 when they ask how their uncle died?
我该怎么说 What am I supposed to say?
你觉得我想进行这样的对话吗 You think that's a conversation I want to have?
我们的很多成就都归功于你 So much of what we have achieved is because of you.
别这样对我们 Don't do this to us.
别让我们活在一个没有你的世界上 Don't make us live in a world without you.
对不起 I'm sorry.
没事的 Oh, it's okay.
我为巴克安排了一位同事 柯特·德里安医生 I've set Buck up with a colleague, Dr. Kurt Derrian.
他是警察转行做的心理医生 He's a former cop turned psychologist.
他会让巴克恢复如初的 He'll get Buck and where he's coming from.
听上去很棒 Sounds perfect.
巴克在家安顿好了吗 Buck all set at home?
小队会轮流留在他家 Well, the team's gonna be staying with him in shifts,
-陪在他身边 -很好 - keeping him company. - Good.
前路漫长 但我们会提供他所需的帮助 It's a long road ahead, but we'll get him the help he needs.
克里斯将最先进行心理指导汇报 Chris is first up for her psych debrief.
大概一小时后就到你了 再会 I'll see you for yours in about an hour.
好的 再会 Yes, you will.
终于见到你了 Finally.
奥塞拉·贝克 Othella Baker.
等等 Wait a minute.
你是她的委托人吗 You're her client?
我不得不说 警司 I have to say, Sergeant,
我这辈子从没为了捐出一百万美金 I have never in my life had so much trouble
这么麻烦过 giving away a million dollars.
我糊涂了 这到底怎么回事 Okay, I am really confused. What is going on here, exactly?
上周我以为自己死定了 I was convinced I was gonna die last week,
就在那个枪手把我带到酒店屋顶上时 when that gunman had me on the hotel rooftop.
后来你救了我 And then you saved me.
那是团队合作 It was a team effort.
有很多人的功劳 There was a lot of us out there chipping in.
但拉住我的人是你 But it was your hand that grabbed me,
我才没掉下去 kept me from falling.
你知道那句老话吗 "醒来后 轻嗅玫瑰" You know that corny saying, "Wake up and smell the roses"?
我现在就是这样 Well, I do that now.
每天早上都深吸一口气 One big whiff every morning,
让我的一天都变得美好起来 and it makes my whole damn day.
我想把它传递下去 I want to pay it forward.
你真的不必这么做 You really don't have to do that.
我知道 不过我无论如何都会做的 I know, but I'm going to anyway.
现在我只需要一个值得的 你信得过的 Now, I just need the name of a worthy charity
慈善机构的名字 that you believe in.
怎么样了 各位 What's up, guys?
你错过了所有乐趣 You missed all the fun.
我过来的时候 有将近8厘米的积水 There was three inches of water when I got here.
宝贝 我今天已经有了足够的乐趣了 Baby, I had plenty of fun today myself.
巴克怎么样了 How's Buck?
他没事了 He's all right.
暂时没事了 For now.
我来帮你吧 Here, let me help you out.
要修好漏水 差不多得要五千美金 It's gonna be about five grand to fix the water damage.
五千美金 是吗 Five grand, huh?
我不知道该怎么筹到这笔钱 No idea how I'm gonna raise the funds for it.
可能得参加个烹饪比赛什么的 Maybe a cook-off or something.
我的辣椒秋葵汤的确无敌 I do make a mean chili gumbo.
50万美金够用吗 Would a half a million dollars do it?
够了 我觉得那就能支付大部分款项了 Oh, yeah. I think that'll cover most of it.
宝贝 我非常认真 Baby, I am so serious.
认真什么 About what?
明天你会收到一张 Tomorrow, you are gonna get a check
五十万美金的匿名捐赠支票 from an anonymous donor for $500,000
赠予这个社区中心 to this community center.
这样你就可以替这些孩子做 It's gonna allow you to do everything
你一直想做的事 you've been talking about for these kids.
你是说真的吗 Are you for real right now?
比珍珠还真 As real as a heart attack.
等一下 Wait a minute.
这笔钱是谁捐赠的 Who's giving us this money?
她叫我保证不告诉任何人 She made me promise I wouldn't tell anybody.
-是女人 -糟了 我已经说得太多了 - "She"? - Okay, oops, I've already said too much.
我不会再多说 You ain't getting nothing else out of me.
好 Okay.
你最好别耍我 You better not be playing with me here.
怎么会有这种好事 How the hell did this happen?
我们收到一笔百万美元的捐赠 A million-dollar donation is coming,
感谢特警组的帮助 courtesy of someone SWAT helped.
其中一半将会用于洛城警局自杀预防基金会 And half of it's going to the LAPD Suicide Prevention Fund.
另外一半会直接转到这里 And the other half is coming right here.
天呐 My God.
在我迷失方向的那段时间 There was a time when I was lost,
巴克帮助我回到了正轨 and Buck helped me get back on track.
你也在为来到这里的孩子们做同样的事 You're doing the same thing for the kids who come through here.
你给了他们使命感 You're giving 'em a sense of purpose,
归属感 of belonging.
这很重要 It's important.
我知道 I know.
也许你所做的事会让他们 Maybe what you're doing will make it easier for them
比我们过得更轻松一些 than it is for some of us.
说实话 我不太喜欢做汇报 Honestly, I'm not a big fan of debriefings.
人们有问题喜欢直接来找我 People tend to come to me with their problems,
而不是我去找他们 not the other way around.
你有问题时 谁来倾听呢 Who listens when you have a problem?
我妻子 My wife.
上帝 God.
从小就是天主教徒 就... Growing up Catholic, you...
就学会了逆来顺受 you learn to roll with the punches.
不会抱怨 You don't complain.
所以其他人可以抒发心中不快 So it's okay for others to unload their feelings
你就不行吗 but not you?
似乎有点双重标准 Seems like a bit of a double standard.
我所说的一切 Everything I say...
你知我知好吗 stays in this room?
当然 Of course.
今天看到巴克 Seeing Buck today...
吓到我了 terrified me.
害怕失去你在乎的人 The fear of losing someone you care about
会让人瘫痪无力 can be paralyzing.
不是 No.
这吓到了我 It terrified me,
是因为那在一刻 because, in that moment,
我完全明白巴克为什么会这样 I understood exactly where Buck was coming from.
我 I...
去年我陷入低谷 I hit a low point last year.
有 There were...
金钱问题 money problems and...
家人的事 family problems.
我拼命地... And I was working...
我拼命地工作 I was working my tail off.
一直都很疲惫 I was exhausted all the time.
但是 And...
我就是感觉 I just felt like
我令身边的每一个人都很失望 I was failing everyone a-around me.
就像我令自己失望一样 Like I was failing myself.
有一天 我... One day, I...
我看着自己的枪 I looked at my gun.
我看到了一条出路 I saw a way out.
我就想这样会更轻松 I just thought it would be easier,
会... it'd be...
让身边的人更好过 better for everyone around me, somehow.
你还想要自杀吗 大卫 Do you still think about taking your life, David?
没有 No.
我不想了 自此之后没有想过 I don't. Not once... since then. No.
但是看到巴克那样 And seeing Buck like that...
身处黑暗的角落 in that dark place...
让我意识到我会失去很多 made me realize how much I have to lose.
我钦佩你告诉我这些事的勇气 I admire the courage it took for you to tell me that.
你觉得 Do you think...
你觉得我们是否能把这个变成 You think maybe we can make this a...
半定期面谈呢 a semi-regular thing?
好的 I'd like that.