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（理解爱）
（X级仅限成人）
（脱衣舞秀）
（配对成功！）
（情感状态 恋爱中）
（你好？）
剧名：私聊
（爱丽丝弗罗斯特女士）
（加州好莱坞）
大家好 -Hey, guys!
你们好吗？ What's goin' on out there?
（“厚厚”：你好）
你好 你今天怎么样？ Hello. How are you today?
（“勃起待发”：你好美女）
你好 我很好呀 你怎么样？ Hi, it's going good. What's up?
好呀 Mmm, I'd love to.
我叫爱丽丝弗罗斯特 My name is Alice Frost.
你好 Hi.
是个网络女主播 I am a camgirl.
很高兴认识你 我叫爱丽丝 Mmm, nice to meet you. I'm Alice.
我25了 I'm 25.
（排名前五的成人直播网站 即时在线主播模特数量）
（从不低于五千）
我喜欢我的工作 I love my work.
真的？你好下流哦 Really? Aw, you're dirty.
你这个坏孩子 You are a bad boy.
我马上登陆 然后会开始播视频 I will log on, and I will start streaming my video.
就当做我们的秘密吧 I guess we can keep it our secret.
（我躲在厕所里呢 秘密哦！）
你可以选择进入私聊 And then, you can choose to take me private.
这时候我就会问你 And at that point I would, you know, ask you...
“嘿 我能为你做点什么？” “你想做什么？” "Hey, what can I do for you today?" You know, "What do you want?"
（私聊时间你想做什么）
你好 hi.
好的 我来把衣服脱了 All right. Let me get these clothes off for you.
进入私聊后每分钟收费3.69美元 Once we enter the private chat, it's $3.69 a minute.
你基本上可以要求我做任何事情 You can request whatever you want me to do pretty much.
如果其他人要加入聊天 也是可以的 If other people decide to pop into the show, which is a possibility,
但他们不能提任何要求 they don't really get a right to suggest anything
要等第一个人离开才行 until the first guy's done.
回头见 See you next time.
全私密聊天每分钟8.69美元 其他人不能进入聊天室 Exclusive chat, it is $8.69 a minute, and there is nobody else in the room.
你应该和我私聊 Mmm, you should take me private.
我保证我们会玩得开心的 Oh, we can have some fun, I'm sure.
我要努力诱惑这些男人 It's me trying to entice the guys.
这就是我的工作 That's what I'm there for.
谢谢 我经常练习的 -Thank you. I practice often.
是的 能赚钱这点很棒 Yes, it's fantastic to make money,
但总的来说 工作本身很愉快 but, overall, it's just enjoying the work.
我喜欢玩乐 我是指性的方面 I just enjoy having fun and, you know, having fun in a sexual way.
我一上线 就有好多人等着我 As soon as I get online... it's a world of people.
我觉得我也是在提供一种服务 In my feeling, you know, I'm kind of performing a service.
有些人会让我做非常变态的事情 You know, some guys have come to me for very kinky things
可能是他们对别人难以启齿的事 and things that maybe they're not comfortable talking to anybody else about.
我很荣幸他们愿意对我敞开心扉 But I feel so honored that they're willing to open up to me
和我讨论这些 我也愿意给他们建议 and talk to me about things. And I'm always willing to give advice.
我差不多就是个精神科医生 I pretty much am a psychiatrist.
是 我是裸着的 但我在改变他人 Yes, I might be doing it naked, but I'm making a difference, you know?
我在用积极的方式改变别人的生活 I seem to change people's lives in a positive way.
如果会导致什么负面问题 我就不会再做这个了 I wouldn't keep doing this if I felt that it was causing any negative issues.
…这周晚些时候再见吧 ...will be back later this week.
（澳大利亚 墨尔本）
你好 最近好吗？ Hi. How's it going?
我的爱好确实很宅 There's a different love of the really nerdy stuff for me.
科幻小说 幻想作品 超级英雄等等 The science fiction, the fantasy, the superheroes, that sort of thing.
确实是的 Definitely.
太棒了 Excellent.
我叫汤姆 My name is Tom.
我就是个普通的宅男 没错 I'm a pretty average nerd, yes.
2011年我找到了新工作 In 2011, when I got a new job,
那是长期以来我第一次有可支配收入 it was the first time in a long time that I had a disposable income.
于是我开始花更多钱用于享受 And so... I started partaking of, uh... more luxuries.
于是 And so with that, um...
我发现了直播网站 网络女主播 直播模特 I discovered, uh, camming sites. Camgirls. Cam models.
-所以 对 -大家好 -And so, yeah. -Hi, guys.
我们看着这个穿泳衣的年轻女孩 We're seeing this young lady here in her swimsuit.
摇屁股 Jiggling her bottom.
现在她看不到我也听不到我 Right now, she can't see or hear me.
付额外费用就可以让她们为你表演 You could pay extra, and then they'd perform for you.
这个女孩儿很喜欢扭屁股 This young lady likes to twerk a lot.
我通过直播建立了一种关系… From camming I get a kind of relationship that's... I...
（进入我的私人直播或打赏）
…那是我在现实生活中没法得到的 that I have trouble with in real life.
而且安全、匿名 And safely and anonymously.
我登录的昵称叫“约等于” I'll log in with my screen name, Approximate.
（每月排名前五的成人直播网站）
（共接待世界各地逾三千万访客）
可以在表演者的直播间里看到她们 So you can see performers in their own separate rooms.
你有好多好多好多选择 You're presented with loads and loads and loads and loads of options.
分类有小甜心 大号美眉 金发女郎 褐发尤物 同校女生 You've got categories like, babes, BBW, blonde, brunette, coeds,
夫妻 性感曲线 恋足 非裸 couples, curvy, feet fetish, non-nude...
还有白人女孩 and white girls.
（点击此处观看视频）
这就像自助餐 购物清单 It's a smorgasbord. It's a shopping list.
听起来很恶心 That sounds gross.
确实有点 And it is a little bit.
今天能按摩吗 瑞安？ Can I get a massage today, Ryan?
但从另一个角度来说 But on the other side of that coin is...
你和表演者之间开始建立联系 you start to develop relationships with the performers.
你开始了解她们 她们也慢慢开始懂一点你 You get to know them. They get to know a bit about you.
（爱丽丝洞弗罗斯特）
现在 我和爱丽丝培养出了这种关系 Nowadays, I get that from my relationship with Alice.
（好莱坞）
-你好？ -你好！ -Hello? -Hello!
-嗨！ -嘿 -Hi! -Hey.
嗨 Hi.
直播周年快乐！ Happy cammiversary!
直播周年快乐！这是第… Happy cammiversary! That's...
-第四个周年 -第四个周年了？ Four years now. Four years?
真不敢相信都这么久了 I can't believe it's been that long.
你已经忍我这么久了？ That you put up with me?
是你忍我这么久了 是反过来的啦 Oh, that you've put up with me. It's the other way around.
开玩笑？我肯定是疯了 Kidding me? I'm crazy, obviously.
《美国队长3》就要上映了 真好 Well, Civil War is gonna be out, so that could be cool.
这里昨天就上了 It came out yesterday here.
我们这边5月6日才上！ It comes out May 6th here!
我们总是快一点 We get things early.
我们通常没有片尾演职表后面的彩蛋 We don't always get, like, the little bit at the end of the credits,
因为他们要留着美国上映的时候播 because they save that for, like, the US release.
好混蛋的决定 -Such an asshole move. -
我们这些女孩 人人都有几个特定的男生 All of us girls, we have our select few guys
你会慢慢变得在乎他们 that you grow to just care about.
和他们建立友谊 And you grow to have a friendship with, and...
“约等于”就是我的澳大利亚知音 you know, Approximate is my Australian soul mate.
我们一定要好好摇摆一下庆祝四周年 We'll definitely do some booty shaking to commemorate our four years.
我觉得你会喜欢的 I think you'll enjoy that.
不！好的 No! Yes.
爱丽丝吸引我的是她的个性 What drew me to Alice was just her personality.
她傻得可爱 又风趣 Her silliness, her funness.
好吧 All right.
我觉得在生活中和人相遇 I feel like, you know, in life you meet people
总会遇到那种注定合拍的朋友 that you're just destined to be friends with, and your souls just click.
以前我从未遇到“约等于”这样的人 I've never had a guy like Approximate.
我不知道 我觉得以后也不会遇到了 And I don't know... I don't think I'll ever have it again.
快呀 这是实现愿望的时刻 什么都行 Come on, I'm making dreams come true here, left and right.
那么 打四下屁股？ Maybe if you add in four spanks.
打四下屁股？ Four spanks?
-每下纪念一年？ -对 -One for every single year? -Yeah.
-好的 -对 -All right. -Yeah.
而且这件事还有金钱回报 The fact that it comes with the financial benefits
这就更好了 is just, you know... It's even better.
他帮我付电视费 网络费 房租 He helped pay for my cable bill, Internet bill, rent.
这四年里他给了我几千美元 Like, he sent me thousands of dollars over the past four years.
很奇怪 就好像是有了个富有的叔叔 It sounds weird, but it's like having a rich uncle
时不时给你寄点钱 that just sends you money randomly.
但他是你的朋友 不是怪叔叔 But, you know, a friend, not a weird uncle.
直播周年快乐 Happy cammiversary.
祝你愉快 Have a good day.
回头再在直播里见吧 And maybe I'll see you a little bit later on cam randomly.
那么 再见 So bye.
我们很开心 我们对我们的关系很满意 We are happy, and we are happy with our relationship,
没人能阻止我们 我们就是我们 and nobody can bring us down from that because we are us.
看看快拍上有什么 Let's see what's goin' on in my Snapchat world.
嘿 “约等于” Hey, Approximate.
我就是打个招呼 Just saying hi. Mmm.
嘿 “约等于” 今晚有空视频嘛？ Hey, Approximate. Just wondering if you can still cam at all tonight.
接下来的三四十分钟都可以找我 Hit me up in the next, like, 30, 40 minutes
我会醒着等你 要找我哦 and I'll still be awake for you. Just let me know.
再来一条 Just one more.
爱你 Love you.
我们再给他发条信息 Let's try to send him one more message.
就算见不到你 依然爱你 Love you if I don't see you.
等等 “约等于” Hold on, Approximate.
炮塔 -Gun turret.
我爱“约等于” 真的 I love Approximate. I do.
我爱他 他对我来说很重要 I love him. He means so much to me.
再见 Bye.
但我丈夫才是在家里等着我的人 But my husband's always gonna be the one that I come home to.
我喜欢这面墙 I love this wall.
你坐哪儿呢？就坐边上吧 Where can you sit? Sit on the end right here.
-要把包拿掉吗？ -坐在角落上 对 -Well, do you want that off? -Sit on the corner. Yeah, yeah.
有人有眼福了 Well, somebody's getting flashed right now.
当然 哦 我的天 For sure. Oh, my God.
是 玛丽莲梦露造型 Yup, Marilyn Monroe-ing it.
好性感 That looks hot.
我的丈夫叫查德戴蒙德 My husband's name is Chad Diamond.
他是个摄影师 He's a photographer.
-真好 -看上去很棒 -Nice. -That looks awesome.
到9月我们就结婚两周年了 We'll be married two years in September.
好 拍好了 -All right. We're good. -
那种感觉他也有 就是 It was a just a feeling. And he had it, too.
你看着对方 你就知道 And it was just one of those, like, you look at them and you're just like,
“我要和这个人结婚” "Wow, I'm gonna marry this person."
我不知道为什么 说不出怎么做到的 I don't know why. I couldn't tell you how.
一想到那种感觉我就想哭 It makes me wanna cry.
我们要是有狗就好了 -I just wish we had a dog. -
可以租吗？ -Can we rent one? -
她惹人喜爱 超级可爱 我看着她总忍不住微笑 She's adorable. Ridiculously cute and I can't not smile when I look at her.
我们离不开彼此 We can't leave each other's sides.
我们在一起之后 分别的时间 I think it's only been two or three weeks
加起来也就两三个礼拜 in the entire time we've been married or been together that we've been apart.
（埃尔卡皮坦）
真棒 -That's awesome. -
我们都很努力 We both work hard.
两个人要努力磨合 You know, you gotta have both pieces coming together.
我们需要彼此 We need each other.
把我的沃姆给我 你好 沃姆 Give me my Worm. Hi, Worm.
举高高击个掌 来 Give high-five. Come on.
我们觉得彼此志趣相投 We all find ourselves with kindred spirits.
-击掌 -“我站不起来 爸爸” -High-five. -"I can't stand up on your legs, Daddy."
击掌成功 好孩子 There you go. That's a high-five. -Good boy.
-那是击两个掌啦 -两个掌 真乖 -That's a high-ten. That's a high-ten. There you go.
她是我完美的另一半 I found my perfect other half.
我在一个办公楼上班 I work in an office building.
前方到站 托马斯镇 Now arriving at Thomastown.
我在那儿通宵值班 I'm there overnight.
确保办公楼都锁好了 一切有序 And I make sure everything's locked up and in order.
前方到站 莱勒 Now arriving at Lalor.
我觉得我现在的人生不完整 I don't feel my life is currently complete.
但我一直没有勇气做些什么 But I've never been brave enough to do anything about it.
我读书的时候经常受欺负 I was bullied a lot as a youth, as a kid in school.
那就是噩梦 It was a nightmare.
我很孤独 I was alone.
刚收到爱丽丝的快拍消息 I just got a Snapchat from Alice.
我没交过女朋友 I haven't had a girlfriend before.
我以前觉得谈恋爱是不可能的 I felt that it was impossible to have a relationship.
我觉得没人爱我 I felt unlovable.
看完了 好吧 Done with this, so... yeah.
爱丽丝对我非常重要 Alice... she is super important to me.
如果没认识她 我都不敢想自己会怎样 I have no idea what place I'd be in if I'd never known her.
我最终决定要用一切办法让她到这来 I finally decided I'd do what was necessary to get her here.
要花很多积蓄 有很多金钱上的花销 You know, a lot of saving, a lot of financial sacrifice.
但肯定是值得的 因为现在… But it's absolutely worth it, because now...
我们就要见面了 这就… we're gonna meet, and it's all...
这就到了关键时刻 It's all gonna come to a head.
你好 Hello.
嘿 Hey.
听到了 I can hear you.
真的？ -Really? -Yay.
你好 “约等于” Hi, Approximate.
-查德说你好 -你好 查德 嗨 -Chad says hi. -Hi, Chad. Hi.
我在吃三明治 -I'm eating a sandwich. -
我觉得我们可以直接进入主题了 I guess we'll get down to the point here.
有些事情要讨论一下 We have a couple things to discuss, I think.
你想要我去一趟 对吗？ You're thinking, like, just a visit to you, right?
对 是 Yeah. That.
我们之间隔了一片大洋 There's a big-ass ocean in between us, so...
所以我们从没机会当面见一见 we've never had that chance to really see, you know, what it's like in person.
我从没去过墨尔本 I've never been to Melbourne.
我得去墨尔本 So, like, I need to go to Melbourne.
-你得… -我们这有个很赞的动物园 -You gotta- -We've got a really cool zoo.
最好带我去动物园 Better take me to the zoo.
还要给我买西班牙油条 或者… You better buy me, like, churros, or I don't know...
你们那儿有西班牙油条吧？ You guys have churro... You guys have churros, right?
墨尔本有一家店卖西班牙油条 There is one shop that sells churros in Melbourne.
太好了！ Awesome!
看吧？棒棒的 See? Winning.
“约等于”有权要见我 You know, Approximate has earned the right to meet me.
这样谈论我自己 And it sounds so weird to talk about myself like that
听起来好诡异 因为作为直播模特 我的时间是收费的 because, as a cam model, I've become very much paid for my time.
我好兴奋 I'm excited.
我拿到护照了 准备出发了 I got my passport, you know. I'm all ready to go.
我的护照需要澳大利亚的印章 It needs some Australia stamps in it.
它好孤独的 It's so lonely.
“约等于”是付了钱的 Approximate has definitely paid his dues.
他其实拥有我乳房的六分之一 或者五分之一 He actually owns a sixth or, like, a fifth of my boobs.
他前后给了我一千美元 He gave me about $1,000 over time
让我做隆胸 to help pay for my enhancements here.
这是他应得的 我相信查德能理解 So he's earned it now, and I think Chad understands that.
我觉得我们都能理解 And I think we're all... all understanding.
除了讨论这个 我还想给你看点 Besides us talking about this, I also wanted to give you some actual,
实在的 有趣的东西 you know, fun stuff.
我要把乳房亮出来了 And I guess I'll take my boobs out.
好的 -Oh. Okay. -
我想和你一起高潮 I hope you'll accompany me in getting off.
“约等于” 我没有一天不想着他 Approximate, you know, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him.
对了 你最好备好椰子油 Oh, yeah, and you better have coconut oil available.
别忘了提前囤货 Don't forget to stock up on that before.
他曾经…在我独自一人的夜晚 He's one person that... I've spent some nights alone.
我让他登录Skype 他熬夜陪我 I've brought him up on Skype,and, like, he would stay up with me,
在我哭泣的夜晚陪我入眠 like, while I was crying at night and put me to bed.
他的声音让我心安 就像听到丈夫的声音 When I hear his voice, I calm down. It's just like hearing my husband's voice.
你太奇怪了 为什么这么喜欢我？ You're so weird. Why do you like me so much?
我们努力高潮的时候会狂笑 And, like, we laugh hysterically while we're, like, trying to orgasm.
这真是最棒的事了 -This is the best thing to ever do. -
我只想和爱丽丝在一起 I only wanna be with Alice.
没有… Like, there's not...
我不想让其他人加入这段关系 I don't wanna add somebody to that relationship.
你在动的时候 During your exercises,
你的脸变得好红 好可爱 your face went really, really pink, and it was adorable.
如果她离开了 我会不知所措 You know, if she leaves, then I don't know what to do.
再给你来个屁股特写 I'll give you one more booty shot.
我爱你 I love you.
查德知道我爱他 Chad knows I love him.
我去洗个澡 I'm gonna take a shower.
他知道这是我的生活方式 He knows this is the way I live my life.
-太棒了 伙计 -这边是海边小店 -That's awesome, dude. -They're beach boutique.
把下面的层次都染上 Do mostly the bottom layer.
就弄发梢之类的地方 Just get, like, the ends and stuff like that.
真漂亮 It's adorable.
-你现在应该立刻去走秀 -像个毛茸茸的狗 -You should walk the runway. -A fluffy dog.
你是我的小贵宾犬 法国贵宾犬 You're my little poodle. My French poodle.
我朋友很少 可能总共就两三个 I have very few friends. I have maybe two, three friends total.
我一直做奇怪的梦 I've been having somewhat weird dreams.
我《行尸走肉》看多了 每晚的梦都是僵尸大逃亡 I think I've been watching too much Walking Dead. In every dream, it's like zombie escapes.
我逃倒是逃出来了 也没有太害怕 Like, I'm making it, though. I'm surviving.And, like, I'm not too scared.
我在自己梦里是个坏蛋 I'm kind of a badass in my dreams.
爱丽丝是个很棒的人 外向 风趣 Alice is- she's a really cool, like, outgoing, fun-spirited person.
我们能不能现在就来场僵尸灾难？ 我没意见 Can we just start this zombieness? 'Cause, like, I'm down.
从小到大 我都不合群 Growing up, I never really fit in with anybody.
我安静 内向 I was quiet and introverted.
很自卑 I had very low self-esteem.
在发现直播之后 When I discovered camming,
我就建立了一个新人格 I just created a new persona.
更多人关注我 I got more attention.
人们对待我的态度也不同了 老实说 People treated me a little bit different, and honestly...
我现在自信心猛增 my confidence went through the roof.
只是知道他们看着我 我就感觉很好 Just knowing that they're watching me, makes you feel good.
好了 There you go.
真美 -Beautiful. -Ta-da.
-你想先开哪个网站？ -MFC吧 -So what site do you wanna do first? -MFC probably.
好 Okay.
你想把你的账号也打开吗？ -You wanna do it off your account, too? -
（我的免费直播 网络播客）
简单 好 That's easy. Okay.
好了 Here we go.
直播开始了！ -Yay! We're live!
嘿 大家好吗？ -Hey, guys, how's it goin'?
你真是个性感的女人 You're a sexy woman indeed.
你好吗“酷球”？ How's it goin', Coolball?
嗨 Hi.
你好吗？ What's up?
你们今天想看什么？ 你们想要什么？ What do you guys wanna see today? What's the thing you want?
早啊 大家 Morning, guys.
嘿 大家好 Hey, guys.
嘿 凯文 你好吗？ Hey, Kevin, how are you?
已经有不少人了 There's quite a few of you in here.
-你们都好安静 -是啊 -You guys are all being quiet. -I know.
（露出胸和屁股就给代币）
不管啦 我有这些好玩的骰子 I don't know. I just have these awesome dice.
我们可以用它来玩姿势 We could use it and, like, do positions.
-哥们 可以的 -我们有… -Dude, we could. -Oh, we have-
给我们好赚 我们也让你们值回票价 You can make it worth our time, and we'll make it worth yours.
真的好安静 It's so quiet.
我们第一轮就免费吧 因为… So we're gonna do, like, the first roll free, 'cause...
六 来吧 Six. Come on.
有时我上线的时候很担忧 Sometimes I'm anxious to get online.
“人们今天会喜欢我吗？” You know, like, "Are people gonna like me today?"
（直播模特每笔小费为五至十美分）
（且通常仅能得到收益的一半）
-我们在玩游戏 -嘿 -We're playin' a game. -Hey.
如果你们想玩的话 If you guys wanna play.
就是看天收 人们有时会有经济问题 It's hit-and-miss. People have money problems the same way that I do, so...
我也是 特别是月底 Especially at the end of the month,
可能更难挤出钱给网络女主播 it becomes more difficult to maybe, you know, give money to a camgirl.
我不是食物 Like, it's not like I'm food.
是奢侈品 我是奢侈品 It's a luxury. I'm a luxury.
我们不是任何人的生活必需品 We're not necessities in anybody's life.
我们会回来的 We'll be back, you guys.
你从那边过来 So you come over that side of the rise.
这里有四个地精 There are four goblins.
看起来他们都站在一个 看上去像是无意识的年轻人周围 It looks like they're all standing around what looks like an unconscious young man.
没有人离开 None of 'em get away.
-我要冲刺… -无人生还 -I'll charge the one- -No survivors.
无人生还 -No survivors. -
我要冲刺逃跑的那个 I'll charge the one that's making a run for it.
我从没遇到过像他一样的人 I've never met anyone like him.
他的想象力完全震撼了我 He strikes me as being such an imaginative person.
他特别能进入角色 He gets so far into his characters.
观察他和他的反应特别有趣 It's brilliant to watch him and the way he reacts.
棒打他的头 Club him over the head.
好 他倒下了 Yep, he's down.
-不错 -倒下还是死了？ -Nice. -Down or dead?
不管怎样 他和死没两样了 Whatever he's got is as when he's dead.
他是个好朋友 He's a good friend.
他是个好人 He's a good person.
-你的书 -谢谢 -Here's your book. - Thank you.
-下周二？ -我觉得行 -Tuesday, next week? -I assume so.
所以我想问 So... I have to kind of ask.
-你在网上认识的爱丽丝？ -是 -You met Alice online? -Yep.
是那种类似快拍的服务 还是网站？ Is it via a Snapchat-type service or website?
-我认识她的途径？ -对 -Oh, that I met her? -Yeah.
-她是网络女主播 -好吧 -Oh, she's a camgirl. -Right.
显然最初的互动非常直接 Obviously, it began as a very straightforward interaction,
非常直接的交易 a very straightforward transaction.
但慢慢就变得不一样了 -Mm-hmm. -But it's grown to be something more.
你们在约会吗？ Are you guys dating?
我觉得是 我不知道定义是什么 I guess. I don't know what the definition of that is.
-是恋爱关系吗 还是… -是吧？ Is it, like, a romantic relationship, or...
你会和爱丽丝发生性关系吗？ Yes. Like, are you going to have a sexual relationship with Alice?
我们已经是有性的关系了 I mean, it is already a sexual relationship.
好吧 Okay. Wow.
你爱她吗？ Are you in love with her?
当然 Um... yes, absolutely.
她爱你吗？ Do you think that she loves you?
我觉得是 我希望是 I think so. I hope so.
你感觉怎样？你有什么想法？ How do you feel about that? How do you feel? What are you thinking?
你肯定料到会有一连串事情发生了 you're obviously prepared for a wide gamut of things to happen.
是 Yes.
别害怕 就算发生不好的事情也别怕 Don't be afraid of any of 'em. And even the bad ones, I guess.
如果要我给建议的话 那就是… If I'm going to give any advice. And just...
不管发生什么 我们随机应变就是了 Whatever happens, we'll roll with it.
我对汤姆是有点保护欲的 因为他太善良了 I'm a bit protective of Tom as well,because he's a sweetheart.
我不想看到他伤心 I don't want him to get his heart broken.
汤姆是值得交往的对象 Tom absolutely deserves to be with somebody,
他应该得到一个好好待他的人 and he deserves someone who's gonna be really good to him as well,
因为他对每个人都很好 他是个好朋友 because he's so good to everybody and he's a good friend to everyone.
保重 -Take care.
-“约等于”是我的重要主顾 -是 -Approximate's like my main guy... -Yeah.
他是唯一一个我真的建立了联系的人 So that's like the only person I really have a relationship with,
我觉得这也是他很特别的原因 and I think that's why it's extra special.
我不知道 很多人都有不同的性格 But I don't know, man, there's a lot of people with a lot of different personalities.
-是啊 -而且… -Yeah. -And...
我完全信任他 这是一方面 Like, I trust him completely. Like, that is the one thing, like...
他绝不会做任何坏事 他是个好人 He's not ever gonna do anything bad. He's a good dude.
他喜欢一些奇怪的东西 我们都喜欢 He likes kinky stuff, and we like the same stuff,
我们真的在更高层面上联系在一起 and we've really bonded on that, like...
坦诚相待 互相分享 kinda higher level of being so honest with each other to share that.
所以我完全不怕他 So that's why I'm not afraid of him at all.
不知道 也许只是我这样吧 I don't know, maybe it's just me.
人们很快就能变得亲近 People get really intimate really fast.
我不会选择和这样开始的人 I just wouldn't wanna start a relationship with somebody
发展关系 based off of that foundation.
我和你是不一样的 You are a different person than me.
比如 你和你男朋友是特别的 Like, you know, you and your boyfriend, that's something special,
而我就爱得更多元 whereas I am more, I would say, polyamorous, even though I don't,
虽然我通常并不见真人 like, regularly actually see people.
我更多是这样的 所以 I'm more that way, so that's why, like,
“约等于”和我才会有这种特殊关系 Approximate and I have this kind of special relationship.
我觉得其他有丈夫或男友的女主播 I think any other camgirl who has a husband or a boyfriend is probably
可能更像你 不会像我一样和他走那么近 more like you, where you don't get quite as close as, like, I've gotten to him.
你要想清楚自己在干什么 You just have to question what you're doing
做得对不对 and if it's really right and...
也要对自己看人的能力有所存疑 You question your ability to kind of judge people.
我个人觉得我不会想要跨越那条 For me, personally, I wouldn't wanna overstep a boundary that I feel, like,
不该跨过的界限 just shouldn't be overstepped.
这也是我们个性不一样的地方 So that's our separate personalities, too, right there.
我很高兴认识了我丈夫 I met my husband, and I'm very happy.
但“约等于”… But, like, Approximate, if this...
如果是我俩先在澳大利亚认识了 If we had happened to meet first in Australia,
谁知道会怎样 then who knows what would... would have happened.
所以我觉得挺好 So I think we're good.
我有一整张打包清单 I got a whole list of stuff that I have to pack.
（打包清单）
我的宝贝珍藏放在最上面 My prized possessions will be right on top.
我要把他买给我的蓝色比基尼带上 Yeah, I'm bringing that blue bikini that he bought me...
因为特别合身 'cause it fits nice.
你应该把他买给你的东西都带上 Yeah, you should take everything he bought you pretty much with you.
那我们整个房子就要空啦 I think our entire house would become empty.
我们最长分开过 The longest I think we've ever been apart was...
-六天？ -那时我去… -six days? -When I went to-
那时我去旧金山 是 -When I went to San Francisco. -Yeah.
我喜欢黏在一起的感觉 I kinda like being attached in that way.
他给我打电话了 仅此一次 Yay. He's calling me. Oh, he called me for once.
哦天呐 你主动打给我？ Oh, my God, you called me?
大概27小时后上飞机 Twenty-seven hours until I'm on the plane pretty much.
大约48小时不到 你就要到了 About 48 hours, probably less, until you're here.
真疯狂 That's pretty crazy.
我差不多收拾好了 那么我们… I'm pretty much all packed, so I'll see you...
-大概… -是 -in, like... -Yeah.
很快就要见面了 See you soon.
我特别紧张 I'm definitely nervous...
但我心里又觉得 “没什么好紧张的 but in my mind, I'm like, "There's no reason to be nervous.
我紧张是因为身体会紧张” You're nervous 'cause your body's getting nervous."
除此之外 我很兴奋 But other than that, I'm excited.
要见他了很兴奋 Excited to go meet him.
我们只想玩得开心 然后顺其自然 We just wanna have fun and, you know, see what happens.
如果见面后产生了火花 那就让它好好绽放吧 And if that in-person spark happens, it's going to bloom, and it's just gonna be its own entity,
我喜欢这样 and... I love that.
这种没压力的关系 Kind of this no-pressure relationship.
我觉得好紧张… I'm feeling really nervous...
因为她就快… about this, 'cause she's arriving in...
20分钟之内就到了 about probably 20 minutes.
然后她要过海关 大概要一个半小时 And then she's through the... through the customs it'll be... an extra hour and a half.
超级紧张 It's all nerves.
只能感受到紧张… It's all just nerves, and...
我不知道会怎样 I don't know. I don't know what's gonna happen.
对 Yeah.
天呐 我觉得有点恶心 God, I'm feeling kind of- a little sick.
每一丝自我怀疑 每一分…自我意识 Every little self-doubt, every little... thing I'm, um, self-conscious about,
全都跑出来了 我觉得… is all coming to the forefront, and I'm, like...
特别恐惧 Yeah. Really terrified.
（出发–到达–停车场）
我知道没必要 但我就是恐惧 And I know I shouldn't be, but... I am.
（到达 一分钟接站）
嘿 Hey...
-你好！ -嗨！ -Hello! -Hi!
稍等 Just a second.
我来啦！ -I'm real! So hello!
-你好！ -我的天 来 -Oh, my God.
-你好高 -我不知道怎么办好了 -You're so tall. -I don't know what else to do now.
我来啦 Well... I'm here, ready to go.
-好了 我们出机场吧 -好 -Yeah. -Let's get out of this airport.
-我在机场待了24小时了 -是啊 -I've been in airports for 24 hours. -Oh, yeah.
好的 All right.
-我做到了 -是啊 真好 -I made it! -Yes. Awesome. Awesome.
-我们出机场吧 -好 Let's go somewhere. Let's get out of the airport. Yes.
-你来了 -我知道 真的是我 -You're here. - -I know, I'm real. -
不是电脑上的动画 I'm not just some computer animation.
要看到星星了我好兴奋 洛杉矶都看不到的 I'm excited to see stars. We don't have those in LA.
我们有月亮 那是我们的星星 We have the moon. That's our star.
你们有月亮啊？我们也有 You have the moon? We've got the moon, too.
就是这样 I remember that was always the thing.
“看这月亮 我们可以分享月亮” Like, "Oh, look at the moon. We can share the moon together."
是啊 Yeah.
我觉得我看着月亮的时候就会想 I do actually think that when I look at the moon, going,
“爱丽丝那也有这个月亮呢 天呐” "Oh, that's the same moon Alice has." I'm like, "Aw."
是啊 我很多愁善感 So, yeah, I am a cheesy, cheesy person.
我想看着你 但我不想撞车身亡 I wanna keep looking at you, but I also don't wanna crash and die.
-我们回到郊区了 -真好 -We're back into the suburbs. -Nice.
-很别致 -是啊 -Very quaint. -Yeah.
到门口了 Right in front of the door.
你确定要让这个人进你家吗？ Are you sure you wanna bring this person into your house?
好了 我锁门了吗？ All right. Did I lock the door?
锁了的 -Yes.
-好 -到家了 -All right. -Settle down.
请坐 Take a seat.
嗨 你好啊 Hi. Hey, you.
它有时很友好 有时不是 Sometimes she's friendly. Sometimes she's very not.
你好啊 Hello.
我想我的小猫了 Oh, I miss my kitty.
你好 Yes, hi.
我喜欢你的鼻子 你鼻子好可爱 I like your nose. Your nose is really cute.
好了 -All right.
第一件事 我有礼物给你 Well, first things first. I have a present for you in here obviously.
-我的天啊 -但是爱丽丝 你就是最好的礼物了 -Oh. -Oh, my God. -Oh, but, Alice, you're a present enough. -
（赫奇帕奇）
好棒 Nice.
真的好棒 Yeah, it's really nice.
我本来想买条格兰芬多的跟你配对的 I was gonna get a Gryffindor one, and then we could be matching,
然后我想：“不行” -but then I was like, "Eh, I can't." -
我的各种收藏 All my collection of things.
我带来一些你买给我的比基尼 I brought some of the bikinis that you got me.
然后记得你给我买了这个 对吧？ Then I think you got me this, too, right?
像是我做的事 那就算是吧 Sounds like the sort of thing I'd do, so I'm gonna take credit for it.
好吧 Okay.
-来之前没打开看吗？ -没 -Did we not check that before we left? -Nope.
我还想怎么这么轻 I was, like, that's really light.
好奇怪 -That's weird. -
好了 All right. Come on.
你想坐一坐还是去洗手间？ Do you need to sit down? Do you need to go to the toilet?
不知道啊 I don't know.
也许我应该迅速冲个澡 I was thinking maybe I should wash up really quick
换身新衣服 and just get into a new pair of clothes
-就现在 -好的 -for right now at least. -Okay.
我带你去淋浴间 I'll show you to... the shower.
好极了 好的 Excellent. All right.
-好的 -好 -Cool. -Cool.
你慢慢来 Leave you to it.
我的淋浴间里有个辣妹 There's a hot girl using my shower.
带我在附近转转 So show me around the neighborhood.
带你散个步 好 Take you for a walk. Yeah.
郊区人民 Suburbia.
-到处都有袋鼠 -真的袋鼠？ -There's kangaroos. -Like, real kangaroos?
是的啊 Yeah.
-不是假袋鼠？ -不是假袋鼠 -Not fake kangaroos? -Not fake kangaroos.
真袋鼠 Real kangaroos.
我觉得连小草都好美 Even, like, all the weeds are pretty.
我们也有一样的蒲公英 See, but we have the same dandelions.
是啊 -Yeah. -
当面见到她的感觉特别超现实 It is surreal seeing her in person.
意外地很愉快 That was surprisingly enjoyable.
过来啊 Come on.
非常兴奋 让人目眩 It's all- it's excitement and giddiness.
-有秋千啊 -我的天 -And there's swings. -Oh, my God.
是 秋千 我一点都不累 Yes, the swings. I'm not tired at all.
我的天 她太可爱了 Oh, my God, she's adorable.
是啊 Yeah.
我会后悔的 -I'm gonna regret this. -
回来…别看下面 Oh, bringing back- oh, don't look down.
向前看 Just look ahead.
我今晚需要一个自己的地方 I need to have a little place tonight.
睡觉 明天我就有力气征服世界了 Sleep, and then... tomorrow I shall conquer the world.
今晚 我要给她空间… Tonight, I'll give her a little space.
恢复调整 to recoup and recharge.
好吧 All right.
好 这回我上对边了 Okay, I'm on the right side now.
走吧 There we go.
好 Yeah.
看 我选的地方多棒 See, I choose the best places.
特别是今晚 刚经历旅途劳顿 Especially for tonight, after traveling and everything, I just...
我特别需要有自己的房间 I definitely wanna stay in my own room,
自己的空间 my own space.
我是想和她共度今晚来着 I was looking forward to spending the night with her.
只要…一会儿也好 Just even a bit of time with her.
但我们还有整个周末呢 But we got the whole weekend and...
这只是为了 the plan is this is only for
一开始的一两晚准备的 the first night or two.
然后我们再看进展如何 Then we'll see. -We'll see what happens. -
我们到海边了 Yay! We're at the beach.
我们到了 看得到我们吗？ Here we are. I don't know if you can see both of us.
不知道 -I don't know. -Ah!
今天让他带我来了阿尔托纳海滩 Made him take me to Altona Beach today.
我穿着比基尼 包括底裤 I'm wearing my bikini, including my bottoms, too.
我看上去像个疯子 因为别人都裹得严严实实的 And I look kinda crazy. -'Cause everybody else here is bundled up. -
不过真的很美 But it's very pretty.
-是吧？好的 -是 -Right? All right. -Right.
我们现在去维多利亚女皇市场 So we're going to the Queen Victoria Market now.
一定很有趣 This should be fun.
今天好充实 We got a really long day.
真好 我很高兴今天过得这么充实 It's gonna be really awesome, and I'm happy that we have such a long day.
我们来啦 Here we are.
好的 我们到了 All right. We made it.
动物园 Yay. The zoo.
会不会有一只来这边？这里有一只 Can we get one to come up? Oh, oh, there is one right here.
-嗨 -嘿 -Hi. -Hey.
看这个宝宝 Look at the baby.
-我要带走一只 -那我就带走另一只 I'll take one. Oh, yeah, I'll take the other one.
那它们会寂寞的 所以我们要再见面 And they'll get lonely, so we have to meet again.
好吧 All right.
真实生活中的关系有点怪 但感觉不坏 The real-life relationship, it's... it's a little strange, but good.
好可爱 Cute.
直播的时候 是有屏障的 When you're on cam, you know, it's a barrier.
虽然一切都好 但还是有点不舒服 And even though everything's going well, it's just a little uncomfortable.
我还需要时间来适应 -It's gonna take time to get used to this.
你好 Hello.
-很高兴见到你 -你好 很高兴见到你 -Nice to meet you. -Hi. Nice to meet you.
-嗨 埃米莉 -嗨 很高兴认识你 -Hi. Emily. -Hi. Nice to meet you.
对… -So... -
这就是我 嗨！ This is me. Hi!
她来了 -Hello. -There she is.
你到底来自哪里？ So where are you actually from?
-什么地区？ -橙县 -Like, what region? -Orange County,
靠近迪士尼乐园 near Disneyland.
现在我住在好莱坞 -Hmm. -And now I live in Hollywood.
对… -Oh, wow. -So...
现在我来了 好疯狂的 But I'm here now, which is a pretty insane thing.
我从没这样过 This never happens.
-嗨 -嘿 -Hi. -Hey.
嘿 -Hey. -
太好了 Awesome.
当一次电灯泡的感觉好吗？ So you enjoyin' being the third wheel? For once?
并不好 No.
科技让这个时刻好不真实 Technology makes it like this isn't... like, it's not real, so it's, you know...
他真的好高 Well, like, he's really, really tall.
-是 -他真的很高 -Yeah. -He's really tall.
他完全俯视我 He, like, hovers above me.
-我完全没想到 -好吧 I was not expecting that.
你在看烂片？ You're watching a terrible movie?
我找到的电影不是惊悚片就是僵尸片 Every movie I've found is either scary or zombies,
你不在我就不想看 所以… and it means I don't wanna watch it 'cause you're not here, so...
糟透了 -Aw. -Sucks.
你真暖心 Aw, you're so sweet.
我想念我们的家 I miss the house.
但我玩得也很开心… But I'm havin' fun, so...
我在这儿不知道该想念什么 I don't know what's to miss here.
-那么… -我爱你 晚安 Uh, well... I love you. Good night.
我也爱你 -I love you, too. -
-我爱你 -他不是跟我说的 -I love you. -He's not talkin' to me.
晚安 再见 Night. Bye.
-拜 -拜 -Bye. -Bye.
真好 Aw, that was sweet.
嘿 早上好 Hey. Good morning.
我在这儿 Here I am.
我很高兴现在我有自己的小空间 I'm happy that I have my own little space right now.
我可能会继续呆在这里 I'm gonna probably want to extend my stay here
最后几晚也都呆在这儿 and stay here the last couple of nights of my stay as well.
我需要能做回自己的地方 I need some place to kind of be me,
不只是当那个明快高兴的人 那是他认识的我 not just be the bright, cheery person that I know that he knows me as.
对我来说还是有点怪 It's still a little weird for me.
就是想做我自己 好好开心一下 Just tryin' to... to be myself and have some fun.
所以… So... yay.
墨尔本！这是我父母住的街道 Melbourne! It's where- It's the street my parents live on.
好棒！-我们去拜访他们吧 -走吧？ -Nice! Let's go visit 'em. -Right?
我喜欢他们的小露台 I like the little patio they got goin' up there.
-上面 阳台 -是吧 A balcony.
来了 好棒 There we go. Gorgeous.
我正和一个温暖 友好 开心的人走在一起 Walkin' around with someone so warm and friendly and so happy,
真有趣 that's just fun.
你可能需要一件新的冬季外套或毛衣 Maybe you just need a nice new winter coat or jumper...
和一个漂亮的女孩一起在城市里走动 Walking around the city with a beautiful girl that's...
我注意到好多人会看我们 I notice a lot of people paying attention to us.
我知道听起来不大好 但那真的让我感觉自信心爆棚 It's gonna sound bad, but it's a real ego boost, I guess.
是的 Yeah.
这是墨尔本中心 并不是墨尔本的中心 -So, yeah... -Ah. ...this is Melbourne Central. Well, not Melbourne Central.
那是另一个地方 这是中央商务区 Melbourne Central is... is a specific place, but this is the CBD.
这是墨尔本市中心 This is downtown Melbourne.
有轨电车在哪里坐？ Uh, where's the tram take off from?
芬徳斯街上任何地方… Anywhere on either Flinders Street...
芬徳斯街是最好的上车点… Flinders Street's probably the best place to jump on...
-好 -…从这里出发的话 -Cool. -from here.
它就绕着中央商务区行驶 And, yeah, it just does the circle around the CBD.
好极了 Perfect.
-不 听起来不错 -是啊 -Nah, that sounds great. -Sure.
听起来确实是我会喜欢做的事 It definitely sounds like something I would, uh, enjoy doing, so...
-会很有趣的 -是啊 Yeah. It should be fun.
我真的…爱汤姆 他是个很好的人 I really, you know... I love Tom. Like, he's such a good guy.
但这是不一样的 But it's just... it's different.
我没预料到会这样 And I didn't expect that.
我不知道电脑屏幕原来这么重要 I didn't know the computer screen meant that much.
我以为转换会很容易 但并没有 Like, I thought that it would transfer really easily, and it just doesn't.
-你是好莱坞的电影明星 -当然了 You're a movie star. -Of course. -You're from Hollywood.
我觉得我们是好朋友 但我就是… I feel like we are good friends, but I just- I'm, like, we're-
他对我太入迷了 这就是问题所在 He's too much into it, and that's where I'm just having a problem,
我在努力平衡自己的两个部分 'cause I'm trying to juggle,like, two parts of me,
我觉得“我做不到”太难了 and I'm just like, "I can't." This is getting hard.
很难意识到我并不是 他想让我成为的那个人 It's just hard to realize that I'm kind of not the person he wanted me to be.
他花了那么多钱 And here he's put out all this money.
为我牺牲了那么多 He's been sacrificing a lot for me.
我觉得自己很不光彩 And I just feel really ungrateful.
我感觉很糟 And that makes me feel bad.
但… But...
我不知道 I don't know.
今天比昨天还要难 Today is harder than it was yesterday.
最简单的社交场合我都觉得尴尬 I'm awkward in the most simple of social situations,
更不要说这么复杂的情况了 let alone something this... elaborate, something this complex.
但我觉得她玩得挺开心的 看上去是的 But I think she's enjoying herself. She seems to be.
这个叫什么？这边一片？ Wait, what is this called? This whole thing?
-这是非茨罗伊花园 -非茨罗伊花园 -Oh, this is Fitzroy Gardens. -Fitzroy Gardens.
我喜欢云 好漂亮 I like the clouds. They're very pretty.
是啊 Ooh, yeah.
我希望他玩得开心 这是我的全部愿望 I hope he's having a good experience. That's all I want.
就算对我来说很难也没关系 Even if that means that it's really hard for me.
说实话这就是主播的工作 Honestly, that's what a camgirl does.
我们牺牲掉 We sacrifice things that we might, you know,
自己的舒适 让别人开心 be more comfortable with to make somebody else happy.
真好 -Oh, yeah. That was good. -Mm-hmm.
今天很有趣 很好 Today was fun. Today was good.
-你喜欢今天？ -嗯 -You liked today? -Yeah.
我也很开心 I had fun, too.
我真的很喜欢到处走走 出来玩 I really enjoy just walkin' around. Hangin' out.
-是啊 -很开心 -Yeah. -It's fun.
-你玩得开心我很高兴 -嗯 -I'm glad you had fun. -Oh, yeah.
就算他很开心 But even though he's happy...
这也是虚假的幸福 很让人难过 it's a false happiness. And that hurts.
现在真的好开心 This is definitely fun now.
-我喜欢这样 -我很高兴你玩得开心 -This is always what I like to do. -I'm glad you're having fun.
真的 Totally.
这次体验对我们来说都是全新的 This is an experience completely and utterly new to both of us,
我们在了解彼此 我们怎样共处 so we're learning about us, how we work.
在没有电子屏幕做保护网的情况下 Without that safety net of a digital screen.
我们好像在重新认识彼此 这样… And we're sort of getting to know each other all over again, which is...
这样… which is...
真的很棒 actually fantastic.
这样要真实得多 This is just so much more real and genuine and...
这更让人满足 强过任何… so much more satisfying than any...
我这四年来曾渴求或幻想过的 dalliance I could have hoped for or built up in my mind...
任何形式的调情 for four years.
是的 Yeah.
我要去拍落日 I'm gonna take some pictures of the sunset still.
好 Yeah.
因为这是最后一次了 'Cause... it's the last one.
这时候要是有袋鼠出来就太好了 This thingy would be just about right for there to be kangaroos out here now.
我的最后一次澳大利亚落日 My last Australian sunset.
再来一张 One more.
好了 进去吧 好冷好冷 Okay, let's go inside. Holy moly.
好的 -All right. Yeah. -
你喜欢这次的行程吗？ So... have you enjoyed this trip?
-嗯 特别喜欢 -好极了 -Yes, I have. Immensely. -Excellent.
-特别喜欢 -你这么说我就放心了 -Immensely. -That's good to hear.
我觉得我好像让这次行程改变了一些 I feel like I kind of... changed this trip a little bit.
-变得更好了 -是吗？ I think for the better.
-好吧 -我觉得 我意识到了 -Okay. -And I think I just, like, realized...
自己的一些方面 some stuff about myself.
我意识到自己是 多么喜欢做屏幕后的幻影 I realized how much I enjoy being a fantasy.
我在直播时 -Mmm. -And when I'm on cam,
甚至是在Skype上 不管多么私密 or even when we're on Skype, no matter how personal,
我都扮演着那个并不是我的幻想女孩 I still portray this kind of fantasy girl that I don't think I actually am.
我… I...
显然 我可能… Obviously, I had maybe...
对这次的见面有不一样的期待 -different expectations... of this going ahead.
我以为会和在直播时一样 And... I thought it'd be more like it was on cam.
我感觉得到 我觉得有点不舒服 I could sense that, and that's- you know, I felt a little uncomfortable
因为我感觉得到你想要更多 'cause I could sense that you did want a little bit more.
我发现我也试着想为你这么做 And, you know, I realized I wanted to try to do that for you.
真的 我想至少要能 I really did, you know. I at least wanted to put on, like, you know,
进行一次私密的一对一表演什么的 a private, you know, one-on-one show kind of thing.
但就是… But it's just-
那真的不是我 It's really not who I am.
我不能这样对自己 因为我真的觉得自己是个不错的人 I can't do that to myself, because I do think I'm an awesome person,
我觉得你也是个不错的人 and I also think you're an awesome person.
我就是觉得 And I just think that, you know,
我不想展现出不是我的部分 I don't wanna show something that's not me.
了解你 真实的你 比这些更让我开心一千倍 Getting to know you, like, the real you... is one thousand times more satisfying.
我很高兴你这么想 Well, I'm happy to hear that.
但就是… But it's just...
我以前不知道你这么喜欢我 I didn't realize quite how much you adored me.
我一直…我真的真的很在乎你 I always, you know... I really... I really, really care about you.
但… But, uh...
我觉得你需要真实的爱 I just think you need some in-person love.
我给不了你 所以… And I can't give that to you, so...
我就是觉得 I just think that, you know,
我不想让你再围着我转了 I don't want you to be hung up on me as much anymore.
我要哭了 I'm getting teary.
让我抱抱你 Let me give you a hug.
我真的很在乎你 I care about you a lot, and...
你值得拥有真实的幸福 而不只是电脑里的幻影 you deserve some real happiness and not just the computer fantasy.
我觉得你可以更快乐一点 You're not quite as happy as I think you could be.
我觉得 你没能更快乐的原因之一就是我 And I think that part of that is still because of me. So...
你不需要支持我 你不需要… you don't have to support me, and you don't have to...
你不需要做我的救星 And you don't have to be my savior, pretty much,
我觉得你一直都在这样做 我也在依赖你 'cause I feel like you have been occasionally, and I...
-这让我感觉很糟糕 -别这么想 I have depended on you. I feel terrible about that, actually.
你值得拥有更好的 -Don't. -You deserve better.
我真高兴能跟你说这些 I'm so happy that I was able to share something like this with you.
但我不想再束缚你了 But I'm not gonna hold you back anymore.
好吧 All right.
放在这儿 Let's put it there.
好了 Oh, great.
-好吧？ -嗯 -All right? -Yeah.
不敢相信我这就要离开澳大利亚了 Can't believe I have to leave Australia now.
是啊 Yeah.
（墨尔本机场）
这就像倒放的记忆幻觉 It's like déjà vu in reverse.
还有我的背包 And my backpack.
谢谢 Thank you.
好了 All right.
让我好好…把这个也脱了 Let me give you a proper- and get that off, too.
好好抱抱你 Give you a proper hug.
坚强点 Just be strong.
好的 All right.
-祝你愉快 -好 -Well, have a good day. -Yeah.
这是… So, yeah, this is...
我想是旅程结束的第一天 I guess, the first day after the trip.
我不知道 我不知道自己感觉如何 I don't know. I don't know how I'm feeling.
我觉得我老这么说 因为我不知道自己感觉如何 I guess I'm saying that a lot... 'cause I don't know how I'm feeling.
我觉得她可能来了之后… I feel maybe she got here and-
可能改变了对我的想法 and changed her mind about me, I guess.
我不知道 Which... I don't know.
那正是我所害怕的 That's my fear.
我知道她不想让我这样觉得 And I know that's not how she'd want me to feel.
但我不知道 But I don't know.
我困了这个男人四年 这感觉很糟糕 I feel terrible that I've been keeping this man trapped for four years.
我相信他值得拥有一个 和他分享一切的伴侣 I just believe that he deserves somebody to truly share every part of him.
我希望他能找到一个 真的能让他付出一切的人 I want him to find somebody that he can truly give everything to,
我不希望让他觉得那个人是我 因为我的心在这里 and I don't want him to think that it's me, 'cause my heart's here.
-嘿 -你好吗？ -Hey. -How you doing?
我很好 -Good. -Hmm.
来 Come on.
你还好吗？ Are you okay?
-好一些了 -好吧 -I'm better than I was. -Okay.
我觉得我过于依赖这段感情 I feel like I was pinning a lot on this relationship.
依赖它来肯定自我价值 Of my self-worth on...
而这段感情可能并不是我想像的那样 this relationship being something that it might not necessarily have been.
我甚至怀疑 这段感情的一切是不是真的… I question whether this whole relationship was ever really...
从任何角度来说 real in any way.
-它是真实的 -是吗？ -I think it's a real relationship. -Yeah?
里面有些东西一直在改变 You had something. It might have changed over time.
-对 -现在你 -Yeah. -You obviously have more of expectations
可能对彼此的需求和你曾经的感受 有了更多期待 of what you both wanted or what you saw it was.
但我不认为这段感情是虚假的 -Hmm. -I don't think it's, like...it's a fake relationship.
它只是改变了你所拥有的东西的本质 I just think that it's changed the nature of what you have.
-这是指我从中获得的幸福感 -对 -It's about the happiness I got from it. -Yeah.
以及她获得的 And that she got from it.
可能这并不是最健康的机制 It might not necessarily have been healthiest of setups.
对 Yeah.
-于她于我都不公平 -是 I don't think it was fair to her... -or myself. -Yeah.
我觉得我… I feel like I...
我需要更多 I need more.
这真的很好 Oh, that's really good.
我有点高兴你能这么想 Yeah, I'm pleased to hear that.
其实不是 我是很高兴你能这么想 Actually, that's a lie. I'm very pleased to hear that.
我就想给你一个大大的拥抱 我觉得你需要的 Just want to give you a big hug. I think you need it.
谢谢 -Mmm. -Thank you.
我觉得这给了我… I guess this has... given me...
希望 hope that, uh...
也许… there might be...
听起来可能挺感性挺俗气的 也许在某处 as cheesy and corny as it sounds, somewhere out-
有某个人在等着我 someone out there for me.
这并非没有可能… And that it's not impossible...
我也许会找到这样的人 for me to find someone like that.
某个… Someone...
对 某个特别的人 yeah, someone special.
翻译：张珺怡